Strawberry Skies | Poetry

When You Were My Downfall

Why am I still shackled to your name?
Why does every road lead back to your flame?
Do you even feel the weight of what you've done?
Can you even fathom the pain I've become?

All that remains are the ghosts of our past,
Memories that linger, too painful to last.
Why did you plant dreams where none could grow,
Only to abandon me, left in sorrow to flow?

You've moved on, as I always feared,
Chasing another me, yet I'm not what you mirrored.
No matter how many shadows you chase,
None will compare to the one I embraced.

Why did you leave me shattered and torn?
If only you'd spoken before I was worn.
Were you just a player, playing a part?
Or were you, all along, the thief of my heart?

I can't even curse you, my words can't fight,
How do I describe this endless night?
You've left me in torment, with nothing to hold,
My trust was shattered, my heart bought and sold.

Seeing you with her, so effortlessly bright,
Stabbed me deeper, extinguishing light.
Do you treat all women with such disdain?
Your touch was sacred to me—now a stain.

I opened my heart, slowly, in time,
After years of hiding, too scared to climb.
I trusted you, piece by piece,
Thinking we could find love, and have some peace.

Jealousy raged, though I tried to ignore,
But it was the silence from you I couldn't endure.
You changed, you withdrew, without a reason,
Made me feel like I was only a season.

You avoided my gaze, my very soul,
As though I was less, as though I was not whole.
Was I not enough, or was she more true?
Why did you make me feel lost, out of view?

That day, my best friend witnessed my grief,
But you, you didn't care, you just caused more disbelief.
I never show my weakness, never let it show,
But you, you made me go low.

What did you do? You acted cold,
Ignoring my heart, watching it fold.
Who cared? Not you—no, not in the least,
It was my best friend, who cared for my peace.

I was embarrassed, ashamed of my heart,
For believing in someone who tore me apart.
You, were my downfall, my mistake,
I should've listened when they warned me, for goodness' sake.

Why did you text me, ask for my name?
Why did you call me, make me feel the same?
You shouldn't have whispered your sweet words so true,
Only to leave me and break me in two.

You shouldn't have promised the future we'd share,
Only to leave me alone with despair.
You mocked my longing, said I was deluded,
Made me believe I was the one who was excluded.

I never had love, never had my first kiss,
You turned it all into something I'd miss.
You were the one who said it all—so sweet,
But you were the one who stole my heartbeat.

Don't "little miss" me, don't you dare,
Go back to your world, filled with despair.
You never belonged in the life that I seek,
You were never my future, just a memory to keep.

You played me for a fool, and you never once cared,
Now all that's left is the hurt I've shared.
You don't belong in my world, not now, not then,
And I'll never let you in, ever again.