𝐀 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒 𖤐⋆ [𝗈𝗇 𝗁𝗈𝗅𝖽]

5 : blur of emotions

Things escalated a little too fast after that. Stumbling, you both kissed each other with equal intensity and fervent. Somewhere in your mind, you were thinking this was so wrong. But it never felt so right either.

You were repulsed from the touch of a man and yet, here you were, giving this man the lead to do anything he wants this night. Maybe, you won't even remember it the next day. Or maybe you wanted to remember it all. To replace the bad memories. And that was the reason you were letting go. For one night, you didn't want the past memories to knock at your mind.

For one night, you wanted to live. So, you didn't think much when the door of the private room shut behind you and when you were lowered on the bed. With him hovering above you. Panting, after you broke the kiss, you looked into his eyes. That brown in his iris which you were getting familiar with.

Even in the situation you have came up from, you couldn't feel anything wrong about him or his touch. It's as if he had spelled some magic upon you. Yes, you were overcoming your fears from years back. But you never felt as safe as you did today. All because of this boy whom you met just a few hours ago.

Reciprocating the same look in your eyes, his gaze wandered to your lips again and you felt heat creeping up your spine. You wanted more. Everything felt like a daze and a dream. You didn't wanted to wake up. You wanted to be trapped in this moment forever. With him.

Sensing your comfort even when being intoxicated himself, his lips hovered over yours. In almost a whisper which was only audible to you he asked you, voice almost vulnerable, "Are you sure about this?" There then, your heart fluttered like never before.

Because never in your life, has a man asked if you were okay with something. That was such a simple gesture but it felt so profound to you. That is why you didn't waste a second to nod and whisper your own, "Yes." And the next moment, he pulled you into another searing kiss. A kiss so tender it made your heart feel lighter.

Cupping your face in one hand, he stroked your cheek with his thumb. While his other hand moved to hold your nape in such a delicate way, you felt you were some kind of porcelain doll which he was afraid he would hurt. Little did he know that despite everything that had happened to you, you couldn't help but trust him little by little. It was strange and new.

It was exciting and healing. In that moment, you made a silent decision to let go of the memories which had hold you for such a long time that it felt like you were caged. Not anymore, you thought. You would be the butterfly as he called you. Even if he won't be there the next day, you will be grateful for him  to take you out of your shell.

With that thought in your mind, you slid your fingers into his silky hair and kissed him back with all your might. Sensing your need, he bit your lower lip slightly. The contact made you gasp and a moan left your mouth. Sensing the opportunity, his tongue swiped upon your lower lip, coaxing and ushering you to open your mouth for him.

Taking that as a signal, you parted your lips slightly and his warm tongue slid into your mouth, kissing you more fiercely and deeply. You can feel his inexperience in the way he was taking his own time exploring and experimenting. With that confidence in your mind, you sucked his upper lip and that gained you a tiny groan straight from his throat.

Smiling slightly against his lips and breathing hard, you slipped your own tongue into his mouth and your tongues collided in the most delicious of ways. The kiss grew more intense as you both panted and breathed hard, sucking each other's lips in a feral way before pulling away with a pant and cheeks red from the close intimacy.

Locking your eyes again with his, he didn't stop there. Instead, his lips pecked your nose in the most tender of ways before travelling down and kissing your jaw. He nibbled the tender, smooth skin there for a while before moving to your collarbone. He kissed your scar ever so gently and moved to your neck. He sucked your skin there and when you moaned, he smiled against the area and kept sucking your weak spot until you were a panting mess.