My Depression

Going to School

It's summer break for me right now and I honestly wish it would last forever. I'm not saying that because my summers great because it's not...I'm saying this because I can and will and have literally burst into tears at the thought of going back to school.

I'm not that old I still have a lot of school left and usually I'd be excited, new school year new people new things to learn! Yay!...not this year.

I want to just stay away from my school at all costs. I have no friends there, I have no reason to go there except education and I hate the school system in general.

That school could get hit with a nuke and I wouldn't bat an eyelash. I know, I know that sounds cruel but I'm just telling the truth because in this book there will be no lies from me! So...fuck you school I know educations great but I don't need to go to that specific school to get my education.

I could transfer but I think this whole mess would just start again...

Okay, when I say I have no friends I don't mean everyone ignores me (even though most people do). What I mean is that all the "friends" I have there I can't be my true self around them and they're probably fake whenever they talk to me.

That is why I say I have no friends because around friends you can be you but here I feel like I have to be someone else or else people will hate me (even more) and I would be shunned.

Oh, and the school system's terrible it should do die in a fire and be remade like a Phoenix into an actually good system.

So...you can see why I hate the school, right? I just needed to get this out and tell someone because everyone who reads this will be the only people who know about this (and me of course but duh).

Okay, that's all. Tell me what really makes you sad/angry/disappointed in humanity because I probably feel the same way.