dear diary, is this trauma?

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I recently started a job as a supply nursery teacher!

I'm loving it so far.

But I had to do some online courses to be fully trained to the point where I could do all the jobs required.

One of the courses was of Child protection,  focused on abuse.
And working in this I realised that I was emotionally abused by my paternal grandparents.
I'm going to put a list of the things that are emotional abuse down below,  anything that I went through will be in italics.

Emotional abuse includes:

humiliating or constantly criticising a child

threatening, shouting at a child or calling them names

making the child the subject of jokes, or using sarcasm to hurt a child

blaming and scapegoating(man I was literally blamed by my grandmother because she had a nightmare after eating a bar of chocolate at like 8pm.)

making a child perform degrading acts

not recognising a child's own individuality or trying to control their lives

pushing a child too hard or not recognising their limitations

exposing a child to upsetting events or situations, like domestic abuse or drug taking

failing to promote a child's social development

not allowing them to have friends

persistently ignoring them

being absent (kinda, I stayed with them for like a week a year and hardly had other contact but that's because they hated my mother and she was my only full time parent.)

manipulating a child

never saying anything kind, expressing positive feelings or congratulating a child on successes

never showing any emotions in interactions with a child, also known as emotional neglect.