goodbyes&heartbreaks

ch.5

it has been 1 month and half now. I am out of the hospital the doctors said that I had kidney failure that which triggered my ashamsa attack so I have to be on medicine for awhile until I can keep it under control. my uncle Liam went through the same thing as I am right now.

and my dad Louis is still gone.

5 seconds of summer never really left... me and the boys became very close especially me and Ashton. ashton suffered from self harm I do too. I was 2 years clean them he left. and I know that it's my fault that he left. it's always my fault. as of right now I haven't left my room in days.

harry keeps on trying to get me out of the room but I just won't. I don't want to face reality that Louis is gone.

"armadillo? come on. you have to leave the room." Niall has been trying also. there had been no word what so ever about Louis.
"no" I said quietly.
"please just leave the room you don't have to leave the house."

i rolled over I face the wall. the I heard a sigh and the door closing. I laid there an cried. it was my fault that Louis left. my fault that Harry and everyone is sad and upset. it's my fault that one direction is never going to be the same. I was snapped out of my thoughts by a dip in the bed.
I rolled over to see Shane laying there. "hey how ya holding up?" he asked.
"f-fine." I stuttered.
"do you know what makes me feel better?" he asked once again. I shook my head no. he then puts his arm around my waist and pulled my body close.
"cuddles." he said watmly. I just cuddled him back.

after an hour and half I still laying in my bed with shane. and hear

"she's not ready you can't just com here and take her."
I herd mumbles from another person. then harry said again
"she is MY daughter you guys gave up on her so me and my ex boyfriend adopted her!"
then I herd something fall. i carefully untangle myself from Shane I quietly opened my door to see my dad harry falling down the stairs. and hear chad say
"serves all these fags right."

(( AN-/I am bisexual so no hate please and it hurt me to write this. it has happened to me recently))

I then walked back into my room and grabbed my baseball bat.

I went back outside and said "fucking leave!"
they just smirked ad said "no we came here to get you Krystal. you ARE coming home with us." Megan said. "I said fucking leave or i will use this on you and that's not my name!" I threaten.
the I think it was chad walked up to me and said "I don't believe you." I then hit him in the leg with the bat.

"get the fuck out if my house." they just stood there and watched me. I walked down stairs to see me dad harry still on the floor.

I got his phone and dialed 911. the officer asked me if I knew them
I said "not at all. I was asleep In my room and I heard my dad yelling and then I heard a crash and then I went to go look. they were outside my door and the one with the pink t shirt tried to attack me so I hit him with my baseball bat." I said halfway true.
then they left. harry was okay he just broke his wrist and his leg was angled at a weird way. I got him up and laid him on the couch and he was crying I haven't ever seen him cry. 'of course he is fucking crying he broke his leg and wrist' I thought to myself.