Life as a youtuber, an Aureysparklez story

Chapter 14 - Just a note.

⁓ Jordan's POV ⁓
The days after I asked if Erin would be my girlfriend was incredible. Every day we would do something new together like going out for breakfast or taking a swim at the beach. We enjoyed our time together and every moment was special. I love her so much, she was my everything and the thought of her soon traveling home was both sad and disappointing.

⁓ Erin's POV ⁓
I wake up by Jordan's phone alarm going off and without even opening my eyes I can hear Jordan crawling out of bed and turning the alarm off.
"What's time is it?" I ask with a tired voice and still closed eyes.
"Oh..." He mumbles "...sorry if my alarm woke you up, it is 08:30 (8:30 am)."
"No, it's okay! You are going to a game development meeting, right?" I say.
"Yeah." He says before I feel a kiss on my forehead and then I hear him walk out of the bedroom and closing the door behind him.

I lay I the bed for around half an hour listening to what Jordan does, first I hear him take a quick shower and probably get changed. Then I can hear the fridge door and some cabinets open and I assume he is eating breakfast. A while later I hear him walking around in the apartment, probably gathering all his stuff and at last I hear the door being unlocked, opened, closed and then locked. 

The apartment gets totally quiet and I roll over to Jordan's side of the bed and snuggle my head in his pillow. The white fluffy pillow smells like a mixture of newly washed and him. I lay there snuggling for some seconds before the panic hits me.
I have to leave now or I will regret it forever.

I quickly get up from the bed and start to collect all my stuff and shove it in my bags. The makeup from the bathroom, the shoes by the door and other stuff around the apartment. Twenty minutes later all my stuff is packed into my bags and siting by the door.
I take a last stroll through his apartment and I walk up to his nicely cleaned desk and grab a paper and a pen. With tears streaming down my face I write him a note, some teardrops land on the paper and makes the ink bleed into blurry words. I put the note on the empty dinning table and exit the apartment with my bags in my hand.

When I get out of the apartment I try to walk away but I can't, my legs don't move and all my crying make them all wiggly. I fall down to the ground crying and crying, I hated myself for what I was doing. I was leaving the man I loved with all my heart, but I didn't have any choice, I did it for Jordan, to protect him.

After sitting down with my back rested on his door crying for at least five minutes I gather all my powers and get up. Then I quickly walk over to the elevator before I have the time to change my mind.

⁓ Jordan's POV ⁓
I open the door to the apartment and a strange feel of emptiness hit me, the apartment is way to quiet.
"Erin?!" I say loudly after I close the door behind me but I get no answer.
"Erin?!" I say once again and this time even louder but still I get no answer. I start to get worried, she would have called if she were going somewhere.

I quickly take off my shoes and hang my coat on a hanger. Then I walk into the kitchen and dining area and see a paper lying on the table, a paper that wasn't there before. I walk closer and pick it up and start to read.

"Dear Jordan, please what ever you do, don't hate me. I'm not doing this to hurt you, I'm doing it to protect you. I don't want to do this but I have to, I know this may seem confusing and I'm sorry for leaving you with so many unanswered questions. I just want you to know that all I ever said to you have been true and all my feelings have been real.
Please don't try to contact me, just don't to it.
I still love you, don't forget that.
/Erin"

After reading the last line it felt like someone took a hammer and just crushed my heart, like glass it felt like it broke into millions of little pieces that flew trough my body. I couldn't cry even if I wanted to, I was way to chocked, I just fell down on my knees letting go of the paper in the air and now slowly watching it glide down to the ground. Time went in slow motion and the only thing I could think was Why Erin? Why?
I had never felt anything like this before and it literally felt like my heart was getting crushed. I was heartbroken.
Soon I started sobbing and then crying, tears streaming down my face like never before but soon the sadness turned into anger. I didn't hate her, no I actually loved her more than anything else but I was mad, why did she have to do this? I knew she wanted to protect me, but from what? I picked up the paper and crumbled it and threw it hard in the wall. I was so angry that I screamed and then got up on my feets. I went over to the dishwasher and picked up a plate from breakfast and threw it hard in the ground. It shattered into millions of pieces, exactly like the way my heart had felt.