Poems of a not so good girl

«Love is complicated»

Up and down
Left or right.
Leave and don't look back or stay and fight.
Yelling, screaming, throwing things too.
"Why do you make me love you?"
The question that lingers through my mind

3am, tossing and turning
My phone dings with a notification
My thoughts become blurry, me knowing its you.
Surely enough it is too.
"Come pick me up, I'm outside the bar."
I throw myself out of bed, knowing its far

The car ride is slow and uncomfortable
A hand of my thigh, warm and gentle.
The feeling of another human sends shiver through my spine
"Don't do it" my mind screams
But my heart is pulling me closer.

I wake up tangled in the sheets
Thinking about the night before
Should I have just closed the door?
You roll over to see me
Your eyes flutter open
"Good morning" you say, me silently hoping.

Forgive and forget isn't that what life's about?
Don't hold grudges, release them, get them out.
Love and give passion for it should be returned.
You never know just what might you could earn.