Summer nights Phan AU

Chapter 2

Phil's POV
I have always wondered what it would be like to have my own apartment since i was 15. This being because i always had to share my space with my brother, so therefore i was wondering what it would be like to have my own space with all my paraphernalia wherever i wanted it. Well now, 3 years on and here i am sitting on the couch in my own apartment on my computer, minding my own business. It feels odd to have my own space and to be living on my own without any distractions. It feels good. I miss my family tho of course. I could even say i miss my brother invading my privacy. Gosh do i really?? Whenever someone asks me "Do i like my brother??" I always reply with "not really he's always invading my space and annoying me". Secretly though i love him and i do miss him but i'm never going to admit that. So much for being kind Phil. Wait.. maybe i would admit it, i guess it depends on the situation.

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Last night i felt happier than usual going to bed. Which is oddly strange for me because i didn't think i could get any happier but well, i proved myself wrong and obviously i can feel happier. The reason for this was because i started to talk to a guy called Dan on kik. Omg he sounds awesome and such a caring person. He says he's "not at all interesting" but i think he is. He may seem a bit of a pessimist but deep down i really think there is definitely a fun side to him. Omg i'm talking a lot about him aren't i??  Gosh, i think i like him, maybe more than i should at this point because i hardly know him. I wonder if he thinks the same thing about me?? Probably not :(  Anyway there's always that possibility he might.
When i was texting him last night and i asked how he was, he said he was feeling "pretty trashy" and he also said he doesn't usually tell anyone how he is really feeling, but with me he felt differently so he did. What the hell does that mean??
Anyway i then asked him if he wanted to tell me what was wrong and he replied saying he will tell me tomorrow (which actually is going to be the same day as it was around 5am then) as it's an ongoing thing and he guarantees he will feel the same way later on. So yeah that really got me wondering. I thought maybe it's a mental or physical thing. It could be both idk.  I really hope he is okay though.
After that he said whether it would be okay for him to tell me what was wrong later on he said "that's if you even still want to speak to me". This made me think again. I wondered what kind of things he could've gone through in his life so far. Maybe it's something like rejection or someone speaking to him for one night and then totally ignoring him after. He also said he doesn't usually talk about how he really feels. Maybe this is because he told someone and they reacted in a bad way and then never talked to him again. This actually makes me upset thinking about this ; knowing that someone could've done that to him. I can't wait to text him tonight to find out what is wrong as i'm curious to find out. I hope whatever it is i am able to help him get through it  because i will feel distraught if  i can't. Wait... should i let him text me first as he wanted to tell me something that clearly is a personal subject for him to talk about?? Oh! I don't know what to do now. I guess i will just have to wait and see what i feel doing when i come back from work later.

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8:34am
I really should be walking to work by now but instead I am just standing at the bottom of my apartment stairs thinking about Dan Howell. He has been the only thing on my mind since I started talking to him. I should be thinking about whether we have any stock left or not, as many of the candies ran out yesterday. I just hope Caspar and Marcus have thought about the stock and have ordered some more candy. The reason for this is because  if we order our products by 9:15am then they will be delivered by 12am.
I was thinking about finally walking out of my apartment when suddenly the pic of Dan from his kik profile popped in to my head.
Dang!!!!!
He's freaking cute af
Jeez!!!
After fifteen  minutes of daydreaming, i finally walked out of my apartment in to the crowded streets of London,10minutes before I should be at work. Oops!!
Knowing I was going to be late, as it takes twenty minutes to get to work and it was already 8:53am I ran as fast as I could hoping to not be that late.
"i guess this serves me right for standing about the bottom of my apartment stairs thinking about the only thing that's all around my mind right now Dan Howell."
GOSH, WHAT IS HE DOING TO ME??? I'VE NEVER BEEN LIKE THIS WITH ANYONE I'VE EVER MET BEFORE.
I should be the first one at my store as I'm the boss but I'm not going to be today that's for sure.