Summer nights Phan AU

Chapter 4

Dan's POV
The next morning I woke up around noon. This was really late for me, I rarely sleep in for this long. I guess I had probably just tired myself out from all that crying and worrying last night over Phil.
The first thing I did that morning was check my cell to see if Phil had replied.  An enormous smile reached my lips as I realized he had answered. Even though I knew that this message could make me upset just like the beginning of the last one he had sent me, I forced myself to read it  because first of all,  I wanted to see how he replied to mess of the message I sent last night. Secondly, I wanted to see whether he still liked me and whether he still wanted to talk to me because even after all that drama last night I  still liked him.
Before I read the new message he had sent me I decided to read the rest of the message before that, the one I cried so much over. As I read the rest of the message I suddenly felt very stupid indeed as I realised I had totally overreacted because  Phil had put that he was glad that designing my game covers helped to block out the dark thoughts that I had as he couldn't stand the fact of me being sad. This just shows that he cares for me right??  Phil had also mentioned something about Sims and how I should purchase the Sims 4. He said about how he was addicted again. I just started to laugh at this. I then scrolled down to the new message he had sent me after my mess of a one and I was shocked by what it said. I honestly didn't think I meant that much to him. He seamed really upset and he apologised so many times. I think he was scared that he had lost me as a friend. This made me feel guilty on the fact that I had reacted in the way that I did . I should  never have doubted Phil. I should've known that he didn't mean anything by what he said and after all he did say that he was kidding. I'm just that much a mess of a person that I take everything to heart even if that person doesn't mean anything by it. I guess because of the things people have said to me in the past I just can't help myself being this way, thinking that every nasty comment is about me or not being able to take people's kindness when they compliment me because I don't believe it to be true. I guess all this explains why I have social anxiety or at least one of the reasons. At the end of the message it said that he was 'always going to be here for me and that he's never going to judge me'. When I read this, I couldn't help smiling because this is what I needed to hear. I wanted someone in my life that I could trust. I wanted someone who I could share all  my secrets with, without thinking that they were going to judge me in some way. I needed someone's positivity in my life to get me back on track and help me overcome my anxiety , even if it being just a little. And I think Phil can help me with that.
After reading all his kind words and knowing that he was upset I decided to reply back and also for myself as I wanted to fix things with Phil.
Dan: Morning Phil, I just wanted to say I hope you're okay and that I'm so so sorry about the way I acted towards your message last night. I take things way to seriously and comments like that.... well  they just get to me and even though you were joking I can't find it in me to except that people can say those words to me without meaning them, at least not just yet. I'm sorry. What you said about about always being here for me and that you're not going to judge me, do you mean it?? Anyway I hope you have a lovely day, Phil =] xx
Sent: 1:17pm
It surprised me when my cell pinged because I had not been expecting it go off so soon as it hasn't been long since I had replied to Phil. I knew it was him because no else ever texted me.
I quickly opened up the message and start to read it.
Received 1;34pm
Phil: Afternoon Dan, yes I'm more than happy now that you have replied back to me. I was starting to worry. It's okay, you don't need to say sorry, Dan. It was my fault after all I should've been more considerate with the words I chose, knowing not much about you. Yes, I do mean what I said about always going to be here for you, no matter what. I promise you I will never ever judge you, Dan. Besides I don't think it's right to judge people as you have no idea what they have been through. I hope you're okay and I'm so sorry for upsetting you last night, I didn't mean to. I hope you have a lovely day too =] xx