runaway > 5sos

chapter 14

samantha

It has been about 2 days since luke asked me to run away with him, and everything seems to be getting worse. Luke and I are back together, and we are okay. But michael is still avoiding me, and i wont talk to Calum. Ashton and i are still good, but we arent really that close. i just feel like i have no one anymore. Liz is never home, and ben and jack are in London. Every little thing frustrates me and i had a panic attack for the first time yesterday, and i also had one this morning.

today is my scheduled day to get my cast off my arm, and i have never been so excited to see a doctor before in my life. when i got there, the lady at the desk took my name, then led me back to where the doctor would be seeing me. The room was super boring. The walls were white and the floor was white tile. the bed that i was sitting on felt like cheap plastic, and it was extremely uncomfortable.

After waiting for while, the young, male doctor came in. He had brown hair and was an average height. he got out a large saw and told me to stay still. he slid the saw up the cast, and started cutting it off. Im not gonna lie, i was nervous. i have never had this doctor before and he didnt even introduce himself. before i could even process what was happening, my breathing got really heavy and i couldnt think straight. my heart was beating at a mile a minute. i started to shake, and the doctor looked up at me frustrated. i felt my face flush, and i didnt know what to do. this whole panic attack thing is new to me.

"woah okay you are having a panic attack. calm down. it will be okay. focus on your breathing." he informed me, taking the saw out of my half-off cast. i did as he told me, and my breathing became regular again. 

"is that new? it doesnt say on your chart that you have anxiety." he asked. theres no way i have anxiety, anyone would act that way if there was a saw that close to you. i shook my head, and he pulled out a card and started to scribble something down. 

He handed it to me, and when i looked at it, and there was a phone number on it. I gave him a questioning look.

"its a psychiatrist. you need to get that check out." he informed me before finishing getting my cast off. My arm was still slightly bruised, but not nearly as bad as it was when Luke first broke it. The doctor then reminded me to call that doctor. theres no way i am calling them. Im fine. 

On the way home i turned on the radio and 5SOS came on. i turned it up, jamming. When i pulled in the driveway Luke was standing on the porch in sweatpants drinking tea. I turned the car off and walked up to him, giving him a quick kiss.

"Im so glad you got that off. it was a constant reminder that i hurt you." he sadly said. i looked down at my arm, looking at the light purple coloring of the skin. he also looked down, and sighed.

"im so sorry."

"its okay Luke." i smiled.

"whats this?" he asked, picking the psychiatrist card up off the ground that must of fell out of my purse.

"i had a panic attack at the doctor. he wants me to go because he thinks i have anxiety." i informed him. and he just nodded.

I sat down on the chairs that are located on our porch and sighed, closing my eyes.

"whats wrong love?" Luke asked.

"i just feel like ever since ive been here, everything has been going down hill. not only for me though, for everyone else. i feel like all i do is hurt people." i choked out, trying not to cry. because it was true, all i do is hurt people. back home all i did was study. constantly. my parents always signed me up for summer school, just to get extra lessons in. I didnt really have any friends because of that too.

"well, we can still put those plane tickets and your graduation to use." he smiled, a hopeful look in his eyes. i groaned.

"luke. i want to. really bad. but i cant just run away with you. youre 18. im underage and that will be considered kidnapping." i told him. he looked down at his feet, and covered his eyes with his hands.

He then stood up, and went to his car.

"where are you going?" i asked him.

"just stay here. ill be home in about an hour." he smiled and drove away.

About 45 minutes have passed and Luke walked in, with Michael Calum and Ashton following him. Michael ran over and hugged me, whispering a sorry in my ear before pulling away. i nodded and smiled. Ashton hugged me, too. Calum just stayed standing where he was and didnt move. 

Before i could even process what was happening, Luke was down on one knee with a Tiffany Co. box in his hands, and when he opened it i was speechless.

"it wont be considered kidnapping if you marry me. we can go to the courthouse tomorrow morning and leave as soon as you graduate. the guys are okay with us leaving, we have the band thing figured out." he said, and i started to tear up.

Luke just proposed to me.

I nodded, and he stood up and picked me up along the way, and spun me around.

this is happening. Luke and I are getting married and running away.