runaway > 5sos

chapter 17

samantha

its been about two weeks since luke and i moved to los angeles. Luke and i had sex for the first time and it was interesting but also terrifying. i had to do everything i could not to have a panic attack. I havent had one since we have been here though. And im happy about that.

Luke and i are now sitting in the living room cuddling watching some old disney movies, just relaxing. Because luke is here in la and the guys arent, its been a struggle with the recording studio. i dont understand how they do it, but im not going to question anything. luke has been really stressed lately and its obvious. i love luke, but when he is stressed he isnt fun to be around. right now he is complaining about how the recording studio is late transfering the files and i couldnt care less.

"we need to go get a car today." luke told me, and i nodded not paying any attention to him. Frozen is on and thats my favorite movie. he then kept poking my leg.

"what?!" i somewhat shouting, and i didnt mean to. he just rolled his eyes and went upstairs to our room. he slammed the door behind him and i groaned loudly.

after awhile i went upstairs to find luke on the bed asleep. i shook him and he didnt answer.

"get up!" i exclaimed and he shot up like i scared him. he shot up and it looked like his eyes were glimmering, but i think im going insane. hes so perfect and i cant believe i am married to him.

Then, i started to shake. i knew what was happening. and when i started to have a full blown panic attack Luke just rolled his eyes and laid back down.. okay. thanks.

I kept hitting him and pointing to my phone that is sitting on the nightstand next to where luke was laying. I am really mad that he rolled his eyes at me, i cant help it. i dont like it as much as he does. he handed me my phone and i facetimed michael. he was the only one that could help me with these. no matter how many times luke tries, it doesnt work. only michael can.

when he answered it was weird because he reacted so fast it was like he knew. he did what he usually did, telling me to look into his eyes and breath. after i was okay, michael and i stayed on facetime for a bit.

"how do you know how to do that?" i asked michael.

"my mom used to have them, it was just something i learned. but you need to have the right tone of voice and you cant be to assertive or soft about it. it was weird." he explained. i nodded, not understanding what that meant.

Luke went downstairs, slamming the door behind him.

"hey i gotta go, luke is in a mood." i told michael before i pressed the bright red button on my iphone screen that still has a crack in it from when Calum dropped it. i went downstairs, finding luke standing in the kitchen.

"whats your problem?" i asked him

"i dont know go ask michael." he scoffed and i rolled my eyes. is he really doing this?

"luke! you know that he is the only one that can help me! you tried before and im sorry! at least he cares when i have one! you just roll your eyes!" i yelled.

"well then maybe you shouldve married him!" he then yelled. i felt my heart break. he didnt mean that did he? theres no way he did. he loves me.

"im sorry." luke said softly, realizing what he just said to me was unacceptable. i just walked away and went to the living room continuing the movie from before. he trailed behind me and then sat next to me.

he used his finger to turn my face towards his, and he lowered himself to kiss me. it was different then our other kisses though. it was so full of lust and desperation. i kissed back, and he stood up and went up the stairs, carrying me bridal style with him.

he threw me on the bed, and continued to kiss me. the room felt like it was getting hotter by the second.