The next day was a kind of day where you want to just stay inside, drink hot chocolate, and cuddle with your lover. That was Ashton and Luke's plan for today since most of the roads were closed because of the snow. But that didn't stop them from making Calum and Michael ask each other out at the same time. They were going bowling. Calum was getting ready, and Michael was getting the coats and stuff out of the closet. Luke and Ashton were cuddling on the couch, watching the chaos happen.
Soon the two, previously named Malum, leaves the house. The faint sound of the tv playing Ashton's playlist was playing, as Ashton pins Luke down on the couch, making the younger boy gasp. "Goddamn it Luke, you look so hot in my sweater." Luke was wearing Ashton's gray and black sweater, and he had sweater paws, and Ashton couldn't handle it, or maybe it was the fact that Luke was wearing really loose sweatpants, where Ashton could see Luke's v-line.
Ashton pushes his lips onto Luke's, this was their first time making out like this, Luke got out of Ashton's tight grip and they sit up, and Luke sits on Ashton's lap. They make out, and Ashton gets incredibly hard. He didn't want to rush into things, but Luke was driving him bananas.
Luke lets out a small moan as Ashton's tongue enters his mouth. Luke's cold hand go under Ashton's sweatshirt. Soon Luke's lips leave Ashton's and Luke goes to Ashton's neck, and starts to kiss, and nip at his neck, which of course makes Ashton go even more crazy for Luke.
"Jesus Christ Luke," Luke doesn't stop, loving how Ashton was saying his name. "Luke... Luke! Stop!" Luke stops looking at his boyfriend, thinking he would want this.
"W-Why? Don't you wanna do it, babe?" Ashton shakes his head, Luke pouting.
"Let's just take everything slow, alright? We only just met yesterday, you should be glad I let you kiss me. I have trust issues, and stuff." Truth is, Ashton didn't want Luke to see all the scars, the new and the old. Luke nods, getting off of Ashton's lap, stripping his shirt, Ashton watches with his mouth slightly agape.
"C'mere Ash," Luke says, lying down on the couch, he brings Ashton head to rest right where Luke's heart is. The sound of Scene Two- Roger Rabbit by Sleeping With Sirens was playing. Ashton listens, to the heartbeat, it calmed him down. "Now touch my heart." Ashton's eyebrows furrow, but lightly touches where Luke's heart would be, and the sound echoes more loudly.
"W-What is that?" Ashton says, as the beating sound quiets back down.
"It's my heart, and only you can make it do that and hear it, because my heart only beats for you." Ashton rolls his eyes, but kisses Luke's chest. "Also touch right here," He points his nose. "I love you." Luke whispers. Ashton wanted to laugh, but presses Luke's nose to hear him say it again. "Are you going to say it back?"
"Yeah, I love yah, Luke." Luke smiles, knowing with the strain in Ashton's voice that it was hard to admit so early. Luke ruffles Ashton's messy hair.
"A-Ash, you know if you ever need-" Ashton shakes his head, he didn't want to hear it from Luke, because he knew nothing.
"No, you don't understand. You don't know what happened, and I-I, you just don't get it, alright?" Luke didn't understand why Ashton all the sudden snapped at him. Ashton roughly touches/ pokes, Luke's heart to hear the loud beating once more, before getting up to go into the bathroom. He hasn't cut in an all of three days, and now would be the goddamned perfect time. He, himself, didn't know why he got so mad at Luke, it was a side effect of life, being moody and shit.
Ashton takes off his maroon sweater, and makes some slash marks on his stomach, and wrists, before taking off his jeans and cutting on his thighs. Sure, he was bloody, and had tears running down his cheeks, and chocked sobs so Luke didn't hear, but he felt... better. Not happier, not less depression, relived.
Michael and Calum knew of Ashton's depression, the cutting. Or at least Michael did. The thing is that they thought Ashton stopped a long time ago, and they were right. Until, Ashton started to feel alone, and sad, then it started again. Just a few days ago. He was shaving, and felt the blood rush down his face, and maybe. Just maybe, he missed that.
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"CALUM! STOP BEATING ME! Jeez, do you have any manners? Now you are supposed to help me get better." Calum rolls his eyes, not moving an inch. "Why did I even agree to this date if you aren't going to teach me your ways?" Michael mutters.
"Because you can bowl just fine. Now take your fucking turn before I do it for you." Michael stands there, and waits for Calum, who comes stomping over, and points a finger in Michael's face. "You are so lucky you're cute." Calum says, taking the ball out of Michael's hands, and rolling it so Michael earns a strike. Michael does a happy dance, and quickly kisses Calum's cheek, making Calum stiff as a board.
"Our pizza is here!" Michael says, grabbing Calum's hand, and they go and sit at the table where the greasy bowling alley pizza was put. "So when did you start to like me?"
"A few months ago? How 'bout you?" Michael couldn't believe that Calum has had a crush on Michael for awhile.
"A month or so." Calum takes a bite of pizza. The two make some small talk before Calum gets a phone call from an unknown number, but he answers it anyway.
"Hel-" Calum couldn't even finish his sentence before Luke's shaky voice interrupted him.
"A-Ashton is passed out in the b-bathroom, h'he is super bloody. P-Please come home." Calum put the pieces together and he quickly gets up, and starts to put on his actual shoes, hanging up on Luke.
"Cal, what's wrong?" Calum gives him that look of concern that always went with Ashton's depression.
"No, he started it again." Calum sadly nods, even though he didn't want to believe it.
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Build-A-Boy Workshop - Lashton
FanfictionAshton and Calum come across a store that had a similar outside to Build-A-Bear, but what Ashton didn't expect was to go from single to taken in less then two weeks.
