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DON'T HATE ME MY MOM HAD TO DOWNLOAD SHIT ON IT SO I DIDN'T HAVE IT FOR A MONTH. AND I LEFT YOU ON A CLIFFHANGER

I'M SO SORRY

Jade looked expectantly at me, waiting for me to speak again. I curled my lips into my mouth and tried to find a phrase, some words, something, that could make what I had to say easier.

I slumped into my chair and away from her. I covered my face with my hands and pressed hard into my flesh, mumbling, "I can't do it." I say it mostly to myself, but it was loud enough for Jade to hear.

"What is it, Michael? You can tell me, I promise I won't be mad at you," she says, reaching over to try to pull my hands from my face. I let her do it and she covers her small hand over mine and gives me a weak smile, encouraging me to go on.

I gnaw at my lip and look into her eyes to see if it is the truth. But of course it is; Jade wouldn't lie to me about anything. Trying to find an excuse to make things easier isn't working.

I slide my hands from her grasp and clutch onto my hair, leaning my elbows into my knees and mumbling again and again to myself, "I can't do it, I can't do it."

"Michael," Jade says sternly, putting her frail hand on my forearm. I am persistent, and I keep shaking my head. "Michael," she cups my face in her palms and forces my head up to look at her, "just say it."

"That's the problem," I reply, "I can't."

"Then..." she sighs, taking her hands away and waving them in the air, "just...act it out! I don't know."

I groan and throw my head back, "That's worse!"

"Just do something that will give me a hint, I don't know!"

I raise my eyebrows at her and she does the same gesture. I sigh and I swear I can feel the butterflies flying up to my throat, my nervousness and uncertainty getting the best of me.

Just go for it, my conscience whispers.

So I do.

The awkward angle the chair is at to the bed doesn't help the situation, but I make it work as I wrap one arm around her waist and one to her neck and press my lips to hers, all in a split second.

Jade is surprised, of course, and it takes a second for her to register what is happening before leaning into my arms and kissing back.

I am so relieved by her actions that I pull back for a second to smile and kiss her again.

After we tire our lips out I don't meet her eyes and just hug her and whisper in her ear very gently, "I love you, so much."

I hug her tighter as she responds, "I love you."

I WAS SO SORRY THAT I DID THIS HERE YOU GO.