Light (Harry Styles)

8: You & I

"Harry can I ask you something?" I questioned as Harry played with the tips of my fingers. We both lay on my bed, on our backs facing the ceiling talking. We had gotten home an hour ago after the fireflies and roses. I've never seen something so beautiful and the fact he did it for me was extraordinary. He did things for me and said things to me no one had before in my whole life. My mother never gave me compliments and the fact this new boy in my life was telling me all these things, was something I had yet to really believe. After we came into the house to see my mom gone, we headed upstairs to my room. Now we are just lying here and I can honestly say it is one of the most peaceful moments of my life. 

"What's on your mind?" he asks before momentarily pausing with playing with my fingers. He moves down and begins to place simple kisses on the pads of each of my fingers. I shudder as he does so and a warmth shoots up each of my fingers that he kisses. A small smile creeps up onto my lips.

I look up a little and see his eyes transfixed on my fingers and watch as each time he kisses my fingers his eyes close momentarily on each one, "What's it like being a Daeva?" I whispered because it felt kind of weird breaking the silence that hung over the room with a full voice. 

He let out a sigh before removing his lips from my pinky finger. He seemed to be in thought as the next few minutes went by and the silence grew in the room. It wasn't awkward since I knew he was thinking as was I. He let out another breath before speaking for the first time in what felt like forever, "In short, it's a very conflicting and complicated way of life," he said simply. I waited a few seconds hoping he would say more, "My mind isn't just my own. I have a part that is angel and another that's demon. Kind of like having a good and bad side of my mind. And then there is me, smack dab in the middle. I have control of mind most of the time but when things get out of control or an emotion gets out of control, one side of my mind takes over. I have no say after they do. I fight to take control back but sometimes-most of the time I can't, and sometimes for a while; especially when my demon side takes over. When my angel side does I don't mind as much but that side tends to do things spontaneously that I can't honestly say I would do most of the time. But for the most part my angel said doesn't come out."

I was utterly transfixed on what he was saying. His words, his world, he fascinated me. His life, his whole demeanor, "The times my demon side takes over things always go wrong. He doesn't like to lose things, to be defeated, to be suppressed, so when he does make it out it takes all I have to take control back. He is extremely powerful and sometimes I need my angel side to help me push him back down. I-I lost a few people who very important to me when my demon side took over. He gets angry very easily. As do I but he takes drastic measures." 

He turns on his side all of a sudden his eyes holding more of a serious look, "Promise me when my eyes turn red you will run. You'll run as fast as you can away from me and you won't come back ok, please. My demon sids will not care who you are or what place you hold in my heart. He only understands anger. He will protect you to an extent but for the most part he will have no mercy. So you need to promise me you will run away from me when you see me with red eyes," he stares as me his voice stern. The situation had taken a hard left turn and I was kind of concerned. I had only seen his eyes red once and they disappeared as quick as they appeared. I wasn't sure if I could promise that, if he was in trouble and his eyes were like that I'm not sure I could abandon him. Leave the one person who holds significance in my life and not come back. 

"I-I can't promise that. I'm sorry," I whispered looking down. I felt Harry sit up next to my pulling my up by my chin. 

He stared down into my eyes, "Willow stop, you need to promise me. This isn't a joke or some game that your petty emotions can get in the way of, okay?" he grumbles and a cherry red flashes through the back of his eyes before turning back to a piercing gold color.