Where Do I Go From Here?

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Four and a half years earlier - Ariana's point of view:

Monday morning. First day of school. This is going to be a killer.

I scanned the piece of paper handed to me by my form tutor to find my timetable. Double Maths on a Monday morning. Not bad.

Just as I was putting my timetable safely in my bag, the shrill of the bell reached my ears. I quickly stuffed the rest of the paper given to me in my bag.

"Who's got double maths in M15 next?" I heard a boy's voice ask, after which a few people raised their hands. That's the class I was in next. I wouldn't say anything, I think I'll follow them there so if I get lost, it isn't just me. I looked round the classroom to try and figure out who it was that I needed to follow and was greeted with an attractive sight.

The boy's hair was a blondish brown... I couldn't decide which shade. His skin was a cream shade which implied he's been out in the sun over the course of the holiday. And his eyes, wow. They were such an unusual colour. Greenish hazel, if that even exists. I realised I was staring at him... And he was staring at me too.

Straight away, I looked in the opposite direction. I could still feel his gaze on me. Luckily, I saw him exiting the class with the others and I trailed behind them, so desperately trying not to be seen by him again.

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We finally arrived in class.

Thirty-five fucking minutes late! There was only fifteen minutes left.

Upon entering the class, I could see that my new maths teacher was infuriated.

"Where on earth do you think you've been all this time?! Half of the class are thirty-five minutes late, that is NOT acceptable! I shall be putting everyone into a seating plan now. No ifs or buts."

A slight moan came out of everyone's mouths.

"Everyone stand at the back of the classroom!"

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"Now that everyone is seated, my name is Mr. Alexander and being late to my class is evidently very unacceptable. I expect all of you to take this as a lesson and NEVER be late for my class again. Is that clear?"

The class remained silent.

"Is that CLEAR?" He bellowed.

"Yeeeees." The entire class responded in unison.

I say the entire class but I mean the entire class apart from me. I was far too scared to breathe, let alone respond.

Especially next to the guy from earlier on in class.

Turns out Mr. Alexander thought it would be funny to pair up "Mr. Popular and Ms. Shy" right at the back.

"I'm Jared. So, what's your name?" The boy next to me whispered ever so quietly, an inch away from my ear. Feeling his breath on my cheek, I flinched, to his surprise.

"I was only asking." He muttered before turning away.

Well, that was just a great start to my time here at Madison High.

The hot boy already hates me.

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I brought my lunch to a table right at the back, so I could eat lone. I opened the strawberry milkshake and began opening the packaging to my chicken sandwich when someone was heading my way

Ugh, Justin. Need I have anymore reminders?

"Uhm, are the remaining three seats taken? I was thinking of joining you..." He hesitantly asked.

I just stared at him.

"Well?"

"Listen right here, if anyone has dared you to pretend to be my friend, then you can piss off! I'm done with all this. Don't act like you care because I know you're Jared's brother. Just because you're new here, you think I'm going to trust you? Well you're wrong! Now get out of my face and preferably my life! Thank you!" The anger present caused my voice to rise. People began staring and I could see Brittany in the corner of my eye all over Jared, but still grinning at what was happening. Thank God Jared's back was to us as he hadn't noticed all the commotion.

I really didn't get it. Was my life a joke to them?

"No, you listen right here! You need to stop generalising everyone into the same group! Fair enough you may not think very much of everyone else but what have I done to you? All I fucking did was ask if I could join you and you go all bitchy on me. Open your eyes Ari... ana, that is your name, right?" He began stuttering towards the end as he said my name. The quiet but accusing tone in his voice caught me off guard.

Ari... Only Justin called me Ari...

No. I must be mistaken because if it was my Justin, he wouldn't have asked if Ariana was my name, because he's obviously know it. I'm just being silly.

"I stayed with you after you were abandoned in a park, hurt. I took you to my house to clean you up, but you walked out. I came to join you today at lunch because you were alone, but according to you I don't care." His voice was softer but his words managed to poke at my heart. Everyone was minding their own business now, it wasn't as entertaining as they first imagined.

Was it just me who wasn't letting anyone else come in?

A sudden flashback caught me off guard.

The first day of school.

The very first lesson, Maths.

Jared.

He attempted speaking to me but I totally rejected myself from him.

I let go of the memory and focused back on what was happening. I could see Justin staring at me, trying to see what I was thinking about. The disappointment apparent on his face.

"I'm sorry..." As I walked away, I heard him say, slightly louder than a whisper but not loud enough to be heard by others.

The tears were streaming down my face as I chucked my untouched lunch in the bin.

I did this to myself. No one else.  

I was to blame. No one else. 

I am the one suffering. No one else.

I picked up my pace until I was nearly sprinting to the toilets. I locked myself into a cubicle and slumped onto the closed toilet.

I stayed there until the end of the school day and remembered what my mum once said:

You control your happiness. It's never out of reach. Just don't go blaming other people because really and truly, only you can do something about it.

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Author's note:

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