Right One

𝐅𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐲 𝐎𝐧𝐞

Jungkook's pov:

I couldn't help but let my eyes wander around, in search of him. Since that incident in afternoon, I haven't talked to him, I refused to even look at his way, that was how much scared and frightened I am. That's how much the thing disgusts me. But now as it's already eight-thirty at evening, I started to get worried. I found a latter on the dining table with a white rose placed just above it, and after I was done reading it, I started to question my own actions.

[In the letter]

"Bun, I know it must be really hard for you to compose yourself right now, mostly after what I did to you. But, I also want to say that, I may can understand how you feel, but I can't feel your pain, nor can I ever think about going through that. It'd break me, kill me.

Even though I admire you for how strong you are for standing up against me while in such great pain, i still regret putting you through that. You didn't deserved that pain. No one does, and I'm sorry for it. I sincerely apologise for my sins, Kim Jungkook. Please, if you can, again please, forgive me. Atleast try to. I promise, i will try my best to gain it but give me a chance.

I want to prove it to you, prove that I love you because who you are. Not because of your body. I love your heart, your smile, your eyes, your kindness, your sweet nature, your imperfections, your flaws, your purity, your personality, and everything that makes you who you are. And no. I don't meant to say I don't love your body, cause I do. I love your body too, because that's what make you who you are, too.

But, I want to let you know that there's more into my feelings that I show to others. My feelings runs deeper than what I show you.

It's not some simple crush, neither it is some nasty lust.

Nor the usual cliçhé Love, but something more.

Admiration, adoration, alongside with respect,

I worship your existence,

No matter the consequence.

A stranger with hope, a friend with care.

A bestfriend with support, a lover to court.

A husband to Love, and let me hope.

Hope to be all to you, to be able to keep you,

I pine to have you,

To belong to you.

I'm heading to the headquarters for some urgency that came up. I'll be back soon. Waiting for your response.

Yours
Kim Taehyung.

[End of the letter]

Did I really overrated? I don't know. But now I'm feeling really guilty. He hadn't called yet and his phone is off. I can't reach to him and it started to tick me off that it may or may not have been my fault that he decided to stay out, to avoid me. I really shouldn't have reacted that much. Afterall, he have some disorders. It might be because of that, for he did all that.

I should let my anger and hurt aside, and focus on him. I might as well as try having him in counselling. Yes. It will help him, I hope so.

No matter how much i tried to reassure myself, I couldn't ignore the fact that he hadn't eaten. I had prepared lunch for both of us but the food I kept for him is still untouched. I should've just asked him to eat with me but I didn't. I decided to be petty and let him starve. Of all people, i should know, he doesn't keeps track of his meals and be considerate to take care of that. But I let my stubborn side take over and control my actions.