Love Found

Ryan

The next morning Amanda's mom and dad got up before us so they told us the best places to get breakfast. We were going to the beach later so we had to eat to get our strengths up. Justin was texting me like crazy wanting to know what was going on but I was ignoring him. I was in love with Ryan but I couldn't tell Justin that since he would get mad. Truthfully I was in love with both guys and I couldn't choose. Right now I was on the beach and had nothing to think about except to get a tan and to walk on the beach with my friend Amanda. I told Amanda about last night and with Ryan while we were walking and she told me that I was making a mistake staying with Justin if I loved Ryan. I think my eyes were playing tricks on me. I thought I saw Justin on the beach up ahead and then I thought I saw Ryan too with him. I cleared my eyes and it was both of them but why were they here at the beach. I told Amanda we had to turn around before they saw us. We started to run the other way back towards her parents. We told her parents who we saw and then her mom jumped up and wanted to take pictures while her dad stayed where he was and looked bored. I looked at Amanda with that look since I knew that if I went with them back there it would be hard for me to look and kiss Justin while Ryan was there. I told Amanda to take her mom to see them and I would wait for them here. She nodded her head and walked away. I looked at my phone and of course I had texts from both of them. They basically asked where are you? I put my phone back in my bag and just sat back and closed my eyes. When someone was blocking the sun from my view I woke up. Amanda was on my right and Justin was in front of me with Ryan standing next to Amanda. "Hey baby." He looked pissed so I got up and hugged him and then kissed him. Ryan didn't look happy but I kissed him on the cheek. "What are you doing here Justin?"

"I came to see you and I saw Ryan at the beach so we decided to get together. Then I saw you but you were going the other way and we tried to catch up to you but we lost you."

"Oh well. I'm sorry babe. I'm here now." I put my arm around his waist and I asked Amanda if she wanted to go to his trailer but then he told me he drove here so we couldn't go anywhere. He wanted to talk to me but I told him I wanted to talk to Ryan for a second in private and then we could talk as long as he wanted. I led Ryan away to a more private place. "What are you really doing here?"

"I wanted to see you. I miss you. I didn't know Justin was going to be here or else I wouldn't have come." That did it for me I couldn't hold myself back. I just kissed him there and I couldn't stop. What he said just basically summed up how I felt. After about 10 minutes I pulled away and walked back to our group. I told Justin we could talk now so we decided to take a walk on the beach. We talked about how the concert went and then he asked me if anything happened between Ryan and I. I stopped there and looked at him. I couldn't tell him it would break his heart. I just told him no nothing happened and then we continued to walk. I wanted him to drive me home but then again I wanted to go with Amanda so we could talk about what to do. When we got back to our group I wanted to talk to Amanda alone but she was hungry so her dad took us to eat and Justin and Ryan came with us but I didn't want them to but of course her dad invited them but her mom didn't want to come. Justin sat next to me and Ryan sat next to Amanda and her dad was at the head of the table. I was holding Justin's hand actually he grabbed my hand and took it while I knew Ryan wanted to hold my hand but didn't. He was on my left and Justin was on my right. This was going to be an awkward lunch so I gave Amanda a look and she started to talk to Ryan while I started to talk to Justin. I always asked him how his concerts go and then I ask him the same question can I be a dancer for him. He always said he would ask the person in charge of that but I knew he never did. When our food came I just ate in silence. After we were done I told Justin that I was going back with Amanda and her family. He had this sad look on his face but I knew his schedule since it was emailed to me every day so I knew that he had a concert that night. He had to leave soon since it was in Europe and he would be starting his European tour soon. His manager even came up to him and told him to say good bye to me since he had to leave. They had chartered a private jet so he had to leave soon since he was going to Europe. I kissed him good bye and he said he would call me when he arrived and kissed me again. I watched him leave and then went up to Ryan and told him that we were leaving now to go back to the hotel and that he was free to join us but he said he had to leave too. He had to get back together with the band. I asked him when he would be back home so I could come and see him. He promised me that he would email me everything I needed to know. He kissed me for so much longer than Justin did but I loved Ryan more. I wouldn't let go of his hand as he got into his car. I started to cry but he wiped my tears away and said that we would be together again soon and then he gave me a good bye kiss. I walked back to the bus with Amanda and she was wiping my tears away and telling me that I would see him again. I confessed to her that I kissed him last night and she put her hand over her mouth and told me I was cheating on Justin and I knew that already. I told her she could have Justin if she wanted. The whole ride home we were talking about what I could do but my only solution was don't tell Justin and just keep going out with Ryan. When I got home Justin had texted me several times to tell me he had arrived and also to ask me why I wasn't answering. I just put my phone away and went upstairs to unpack. I had gotten an email from Ryan saying that he was going home to Nashville soon and wanted to know if I wanted to come and join him. I emailed him back really quickly and said of course with a smiley face. He emailed me back and gave me the details. I told my mom that I would be going to see Justin this date and she said it was perfectly okay. I couldn't wait for that date oh wait it was next weekend. All I had to do was get through this week and then I would be all ready to leave and see Ryan. Monday rolled through and by the time I realized what day it was I hadn't even packed yet and I was leaving tomorrow. I started to panic and pack but I didn't know the weather and I knew that I had to check but it was easier to just text Ryan and he told me it was warm in Nashville so I packed short sleeve shirts and shorts. In the morning I would pack my hairbrush and tooth brush. He said the car was coming in the morning to get me so that we could spend all day tomorrow together. I texted him last minute telling him that my mom was also going away and she was making me bring my dog and he said that was fine. I triple checked with him and I even told him that she wasn't really a good sociable dog. He said that was fine since his dogs were old too and slept most of the time. I smiled to myself and got ready for bed. I would see Ryan tomorrow and everything would be better. I dreamed of him that night and I saw his face and my mouth on his mouth.

                  In the morning I packed everything else I would need and got my dogs stuff ready. The car came around 11 and we were at the airport around 11:30. The driver told me that I had to close my eyes while he helped me out of the car. He took my hand and led me to the airplane then someone else took my hand and told me to open my eyes and all of Hot Chelle Rae were here including Ryan who was smiling at the top of the stairs leading to the airplane. I ran up to him and jumped into his arms. I wouldn't stop kissing him. I wanted to remember this day forever. He led me onto the airplane and we sat next to each other. This was going to be a new experience for me going somewhere I had never been to before. I imagined Nashville to be a very cute, busy, huge place. The whole ride there Ryan and I talked so much I felt like I knew him so well. When we arrived in Nashville I got out of the airplane and walked with Ryan at my hip to the car. He and I got into the first car and the rest of the band got into the other car. I was nervous to meet his parents but he told me to not be scared since they were nice people. He told me that they owned a shoe store and that he and Jamie worked there when they were home.

When we got to his house I didn't want to get out of the car and Ryan told me to not be scared so I stepped out of the car and walked up to his house with him. He opened the door and I walked in with him next to me. His parents came out of the kitchen to give him a hug and Jamie a hug. I just stood there awkwardly. Ryan took my hand and introduced me to his parents. I shook their hands and smiled. Ryan put his hand around my waist while I told his parents all about me. They invited me to sit down in the living room so I did and we talked even more. They asked me how I met Ryan and then everything just fell apart for me. I started to think about Justin and what I was doing. I excused myself and I went outside and sat down on their porch. I put my head in my hands and I just thought about how I was hurting Justin and what I could do to make it up to him. There was basically nothing I could do and I felt so bad about it. I saw Ryan sit next to me and he took my hand and told me that we would work something out. I got up, kissed his hand, and went back into the house. Ryan showed me which room I was staying in since he thought that I might want to refresh myself. I started to unpack when I heard the door knock and I saw Ryan's mom walk in. She just wanted to know how I liked Nashville so far. I told her that I didn't really see much of it to like it yet. She told me that I could come downstairs whenever I wanted to. I thanked her again and just sat down on the floor.

I didn't even realize I was sitting on the floor for so long until I heard a knock on the door and Ryan walked in. He sat down next to me. I asked him what I was going to do. I had to tell Justin what was going on. I couldn't keep lying to him. Were there tears coming down my cheeks? Was I really crying? I hooked my arm through Ryan's and laid my head down on his shoulder. He helped me up and we went downstairs. My dog was sleeping on the carpet with his dogs but I could tell that she wasn't really sleeping. She was watching out for his dogs since seemed very bothered. When I sat down on the couch I pat my leg and she came and slept at my feet. She looked much more relaxed by me so when the night came and I went out with Ryan I put her in my room so she would at least be more familiar with my stuff. Ryan wanted to take me to a local bar that the band used to perform in so I went. I wasn't allowed to drink since I was underage but Ryan let me drink some of his beer since he knew I liked to drink beer. After about 5 sips I was drunk or at least I felt drunk. I couldn't stop laughing so I didn't know if that was a good sign or not. I didn't want to leave but Ryan pulled me away and took me back to his house. I don't remember what else happened that night.