Love Found

Twins and heartbreak

When I woke up I had a lot of people around my bed and they were all telling Justin that they were sorry to hear about JJ. At least I still had Elizabeth to look forward to. I had asked Justin to ask the nurse if she could have Elizabeth moved to our room so I could see her every day. She was so little and fragile and it always made me think that JJ could be here with me if God hadn't have decided to take him from me. Once Cody had heard about JJ he immediately came to see me and offer his condolences. Justin had gone to the studio to record a song about JJ, so Cody took me to see JJ before they sent him to the morgue. He looked just like me, but I would never know if he had his father's personality. I missed him so much. He was my son and I couldn't believe that I was already losing my first baby. My parents had come to the hospital from my Malibu house to see me. They told me that God obviously had a plan to take my son and instead left me with my beautiful daughter. She was so cute and playful. The day that I went home was the same day that they took my staples out, but Elizabeth had to stay longer until her lungs were fully developed. I visited her everyday making sure she knew who her mommy was. Justin came with me sometimes, but most of the time I tried to rest as much as I could. Justin came with me to the funeral when we buried JJ. He was put next to my grandmother who I asked to watch my son.

Alli came to visit me a lot and she brought some food along with her. She was my best friend out here along with her brother and they were like my baby sitters. I lived in a big house with no servants and Justin's mom lived with us, but she didn't want to help me since all she did was cry because of JJ.  Justin had gone away to just cool off and Scooter was having a concert in Austin for the kids who had cancer. Before he left though I had gotten pregnant again with Justin's baby while taking care of Elizabeth who finally was able to come home. She had a nanny who I heard was good so I got to get my sleep and rest back. I needed this rest since again I was having twins. I tried to take good care of myself this time around so that I wouldn't lose another baby. I finally was able to get my friends out here from college and high school. I never was able to finish college since I got married so I didn't have a degree, but who cares since I was married to someone rich who loved me. They were so surprised to see my stomach and Elizabeth. I told them what had happened to JJ and they were devastated to hear that. I let them feel my stomach since one of the babies was kicking. I put my hand on my back and sat down. I had gotten lunch ready for us all, and they weren't surprised to see me eating fruit and salads. I was actually craving meat, so I just had chicken with my salad. I wanted a steak so badly, but my doctor and nutritionist told me that the rare steak would not be good for the babies so it was chicken and anything else cooked. I wasn't expecting anybody else to come over so when the door opened they were all surprised to see who walked in. It wasn't Justin who they had expected, but Alli and Cody with their dog and mine that they had picked up from the airport. I asked Alli to help me up, so I could go and check on Elizabeth. Elizabeth was awake and ready to eat and get changed. I took her out of her crib and asked Alli to pass me a diaper since Elizabeth had done both things in her last one. Finally changed and clean I brought her downstairs to see everybody. I asked Cody to hold her while I sat down. He was there for her birth, so she knew him more than she knew Justin. Justin and Cody were like brothers to each other so he was like a brother and best friend to me. Cody actually was going to drive us all out to the airport, so that we could see Justin perform and Cody had to go too so he was going to be on our plane with us.

At the airport I waited in the car while our driver went to see if my plane was ready. I was not comfortable at all. My back hurt again, my hands hurt, everything hurt basically. The plane was ready after 20 minutes of waiting. I had to take a pain medication that wouldn't hurt the babies.  The plane was not at all comfortable, but I loved having my friends on board. I started to cry just then and everyone looked at me, but Alli and Cody both got up and asked me what was wrong, if the babies were coming, if there was any blood, etc. My friends all looked at me since they couldn't help and didn't know how to. Alli and Cody both were at the hospital during my last pregnancy so they knew what to ask. I just told them one of the babies had kicked me hard in the ribs. I asked them to help me up since I had to pee and I wanted to make sure I wasn't bleeding. Alli came in with me to help me since I was holding onto the sink since I was in so much pain. It wasn't just a kick, but I couldn't tell my friends I was in labor. Cody ran to tell the pilot that I was in labor. We had to land now I was in so much pain like contractions. I was at nine months already and close to my due date. I texted Justin and told him it was time. I started screaming and I needed both Alli and Cody to help me out of the bathroom.  My water broke and I was in so much pain. I needed to deliver these babies now! Good thing I had a doctor on board with me so the four of us went into the back where I just tried to breathe and not scream. My doctor checked to see how far I had dilated and it wasn't far enough for me to get an epidural. All I could do now was scream and cry. I had an ultrasound on board since I didn't want another baby dying and right now they both looked healthy nothing wrong. Justin was texting me the whole time telling me that it was okay and everything would be alright. The pilot came in and told us that he was going to land soon. I felt bad for him since I started screaming in his face. I don't know if this was normal, but I started saying I hate Justin. It was about an hour later and I was checked again to see how far I was dilated. It was finally time for me to get an epidural. The pain subsided, and I asked Cody to see if my friends were okay. I felt bad leaving them out there, but if you hadn't noticed I was about to give birth. I was still on a plane that was lobbying at the airport, and that's when someone ran in and told me that Justin was outside with a car waiting for me. It was too late they were coming. I could feel one head coming and I told the doctor that so he told me to push. I screamed and pushed until a little head came out, and then pushed again. I heard two beautiful cries from the corner of the room. Cody brought my little boy over and Alli brought my little girl. Justin came running into the room hugging me first, and then kissing the babies. The doctor told me that they were both healthy, and my little boy was 8 pounds and my little girl was 7 pounds. We named them Cody and Alli after the two people that helped me during this whole pregnancy and now during labor. My friends walked in with smiles on their faces as well as a smile on my own.