Love Found

Mistrust

           

Justin was on his promotional tours and I missed him. I watched him on the Today show this morning and he looked happy singing by himself and then with Big Sean and Halsey. I loved those songs and I was so happy that he was happy. The fans really loved him still and I was happy for that. I did get jealous when he got a little too close to Halsey for my liking and did bring it up with him. Let's just say we had a big yelling fit where I accused him of wanting to be with her and not me. He reassured me several times that he loved me and not her. I didn't buy that for one second. After that show he was on Jimmy Fallon and a whole week of Ellen. I loved both of those people, but I just didn't have time to go with Justin to these shows. I had four kids to take care of and god knows Justin wanted more. His stamina at night let's just say was like a person who didn't have four kids already. I mean I know he was young, but we already had four kids and my own sex stamina was not the same anymore. In the mornings I piled all the kids in and brought them to their respective schools. Elizabeth was in pre-school, Cody and Alli were still too little and too young to go to school so they stayed home with me and Jeremy who was still too little to go anywhere so they all stayed home with me. Elizabeth wasn't happy to be the only one going to school, but I didn't care. She needed a proper education even though her last name was Bieber. I talked to Justin every night and made sure he was okay. He was coming back home to perform on the AMA's, and I promised him I would go with him. I would've rather stayed home, but he begged me and did the naughty with me. I was still mad at him for the Halsey thing on the Today show, but he told me as his wife I had to come with him. That turned into another fight that went like this "babe you have to come to the AMA's with me."

"Why don't you just take Halsey with you? You seemed to like her more than me."

"How many times do we have to go over this? I love you not her. That was all acting for the fans."

"You call wrapping your arms around her waist and then leaning in and almost kissing her acting!"

"Alright so maybe we did a really bad job at it, but still I love you Rachel not her!"

"I don't believe that for one second."

"Who did I marry, her or you?"

"I'm starting to doubt that we have a marriage with all the time you spend on the road."

"I have invited you to come with me on the road many times."

"Justin we have four kids. Who is going to watch them when I'm gone on the road with you?"

"My mom and dad can. Plus, your parents can too."

"Justin we are their parents and I would like to be that mother to them. Not my parents acting as parents to them." At this point I didn't realize that I had tears pouring down my cheeks. Justin tried to wipe them away, but I wouldn't let him touch me. I moved away and wiped them with my own hands.

"Look I'm staying home with the kids and you go and enjoy the awards without me. Have fun performing I'll be watching from right here." I left that conversation in a way that I thought was ended. Now it was the night of the awards and Justin had already left with Ariana and Scooter. I was seated in bed with all four of my kids on the bed with me. We were eating popcorn and watching all the stars walk down the red carpet before the show. Currently One Direction was being interviewed and I wasn't really paying attention to their answers. I knew Justin was friends with Niall who was the blonde Irish one. He had come over the house once with Cody and a couple of other friends to jam. They finished their interview and Justin was next.

"DADDY!" I looked over at Elizabeth and she was pointing at the screen and Justin. Then the twins started screaming daddy and pointing.

"I know babies. That is your daddy." I tucked each kid into me and they all shuffled towards my sides. We watched Justin give his answers to the interviewer who asked where I was and Justin simply said at home with the kids. I let out a huff through my nose at that. Of course he wouldn't tell the real answer. We had gotten into a fight and I won of course. He moved on and we just got more comfortable in bed.