𝙁𝙡𝘼𝙈𝙀 // 𝙀𝙑𝘼𝙉 𝘽𝙐𝘾𝙆𝙇𝙀𝙔

READ (not a chapter update)

Hi everyone.

This will be posted on both books as FLAME has more reads then AFTERFLAME and I want as many people to see it as possible.

Let's just start with this, 500k reads between FLAME and AFTER FLAME is beyond what I could have ever imagined. If I could thank every single one of you I would. I haven't been on this account in a long time. I just logged back on today, and I was met with 1K notifications all about my fanfic.

I genuinely never imagined it would become this. And I love all of you who have made it so.

During season 5 and 6 I will admit, I fell out of  love with 9-1-1. It was such a comfort show for so long, but I lost interest.

I have kept up with it, and I have enjoyed watching it since abc took over. But the passion to write about still remains the same.

I wrote my fanfic during a time when buck was "straight" and he was only casted with female love interests. Ones of which never got more than a couple of episodes.

I brought my own spin to the show and I loved every part of it when I did. It was my favourite thing to do and I would stay up all night writing chapter after chapter.

I ended my book after season 4. I had all intention of continuing but life got in the way and I just stopped. The book I feel was wrapped up in a nice way, a happy ending that people can make with it what they will.

If I ever wanted to start writing again, I really would know what to do with my OC. Bucks sexuality arc is a storyline I am not willing to erase for my fan-fiction. I found it added so much character to buck, even outside of buddie (which I fully support lol) but as a stand alone storyline, it has been a refreshing one. I don't want to change that and I don't want to change the dynamics of the relationship I wrote.

Kate and buck were written to be each other's anchors, a person needed in a time that felt different. I poured my heart into them and I love every part of them. I could never see a storyline that would work to explore bucks sexuality that wouldn't ultimately break them up.

I'm writing for a few reasons,

I wanted to give a reason as to why it never continued. I have chapters written in season 5, with an OC storyline that I chose not to write due to finishing after season 4.

There's nothing I hate more As a reader them leaving the book high and dry. As a reader I have my favourite fanfictions that were never completed, and never acknowledged.

As a writer, I understand how something can get in the way. Not even a life issue, but just maturity. I was 19 when I started these and I'm 22 now. I just aged out of it in a way.

But mainly, the new episode (⚠️SPOILER BELOW⚠️)

Bobby has died. It is truly heart breaking. I shed real tears guys. And I never cry at shows.

Knowing that nobody (including Peter) wanted this, is even more heartbreaking. After season 4 I found that the show hit a wall, I don't really remember a lot of season 5 and 6 other than it felt like one long season. When abc took over, it started to feel like 9-1-1 again. And season 7 and 8 have been so good (apart from the doppelgänger wtf??) and also (Athena and boats and planes. Keep that woman on the ground)

As a writer who embeds herself in her characters, I thought about Kate the whole episode. What would she do? where would she be?how would she react?

I genuinely don't know how I would have written the last two episodes, with a great difficult - I can imagine- but I know I would have been a challenge.

Now whether Bobby actually stays dead - the twitters leaks from two weeks ago have everyone up in arms about the truth. I mean I have seen so many theories, right down to Bobby's magic blood (which they probably don't even remember writing. It was all the way in like season one.)

Anyway, to make a long story short - I just wanted to acknowledge you all. I see you, I hear you and I hope that this doesn't upset anyone. This fanfiction has hit milestones I never thought possible, and the fact that it has hit them when I haven't looked back and edited it is even more impressive because I know for a fact there are so many spelling mistakes.

I wish I had the ambition to continue but as I said, even if I did. I'm left a crossroads with Kate and Buck. (If anyone had any ideas please feel free to comment)

Anyway. Again. I love every single one of you. All 500k who have read these books. If you were all in a room with me.. I'd probably freak out.. but that's the good thing about being online 😂.

RIP Bobby Nash.

Tim minear. I hope you pillow is never cold and your chargers only work when you wrap them around your phone a million times.

Love you all.

E