Exposing my art folder

Yapping about things

(this was originally gonna be a part in the yapping book on @Echoes_0f_many, but this spiraled far further than the topic I was gonna talk about, that being more OC yap, so here we are instead.)

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If yall even care about these anymore,  here are the useless warnings. (useless because they are minor.. at least in my mind.)
         So.. Warnings for:
Existentialism
Old people references/things.
Nostalga bait

Enjoy ig.

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So... Ive found out that I'm really sheltered about all my stories exept the one I'm actively writing.(otherwise known as Merging Realities)

I'm constantly spoiling things like "Oh yeah. she dies.. kinda.. at the end. it's fine. everything's fine." and "Woah.. powers and connections! SpoOoOkyy~"

And meanwhile stories like TSL, literally my first story(the first ever draft being from 5-7 years ago.) even saying the character's name or showing them feels like I'm revealing too much and that the entire suprise factor is ruined-

Maybe it's because with AUs you (most likely)already know the characters and stuff. (For example, Taco in InanimateRompa with people thinking she was the mastermind because of her actions in S1 of the actual show) or maybe it's the fact that while I love II and series like Azurehowl Reborn and Whitefall, that they don't feel like my own even if I make a story about them.

sure.. I adore Glow and all(Dragon Lighty has my heart), but.. she's not... mine.
meanwhile Ive had Galixy and others for much longer than Ive even had electronics.. I guess it's just attachment because even though Coda's the one I use to represent myself online... I feel more connected to Galixy then I do with Coda.. even though Coda is how I imagine myself.

Ive only really told a select few people about the lore or TSL or Guardians.. even fewer knowing about TUA.
Those people being friends Ive had for almost a decade at this point like Dee, her even being around when there was only 5 characters(excluding her OC) total.
and my other friends that Ive had for around... 3..? 5??? years? Being around when I still used to play as Galixy.. characters like Storm or Kuno didn't exist, Spade(Spike at the time) was made a year ago at most, and-

I miss those times..

Maybe that's why I'm so attached..
She reminds me of times I wanna go back too..

No electronics, playing stufties with my twin, having crappy old sparkle dog looks and characters like Lilly, Foxy, and Pinky(all those being stufties) and of course by actual first OCs being from.. honestly before I can really remember.

I want to yap about all these's guys so bad but whenever I wanna do something with them the fear of "You're ruining it" crashes down on my brain.

Ive been going through art block because of it actually.

Been listening to old songs like Youth(by Daughter), King(by Lauren Aquilina), and To Birds(by Regina Spektor) and it's just making me want to go back.
Hell, My teacher even put on Titanium. (albeit a cover) which was actually the song. that brought to life the first draft of TSL. And spawning Cloud, Lotus, and Syloh at the same time.

Ive also been thinking about those old animation memes like Losing My Mind, Twisted, Infinite, Eyes Half Closed, Panic Pills, Siren- those ones.
golly how I miss those.

So.. Ive been going through it.

Drawin's been tough.
(And I promise yall this ain't a vent- lol.)

 
 
 
 
 
But on a positive side.. I think I'm ready to yap about at least the old lore of my stories. because there's a lot.