My One Shots (boyxboy)

Malum-Obstacles

This is partly shitty but I wanted to publish something.

I have a problem.And no,it's not a boner.That I could deal with.

I'm in love with Calum Hood,have been since I knew what the word meant.Problem is he's straight.I've screamed,cursed and nursed my bitter feelings with a bottle that burned my throat over that fact.But I've accepted it.I still need to leave the room if he has company,but otherwise we're fine.

Then we went on tour with One Direction and I got close with Harry.He was in the same problem.Loius being his straight unattainable best friend who is too attractive to be fair.Just like Calum.Then we started to get a little too close,soft touches along my side or down my arm,hushed laughs whispered in my ear added with a low comment in a tantalising voice.

For the first time I realised there were other boys other then Calum.I felt like someone had slapped me between the eyes.So I started touching back,experimenting how far I could take this thing with Harry.A little then turned to a lot which turned to hot nights in one of our buses or even in our shared hotel room.

Neither of us told anyone we were hooking up but if two people emerged from the same room with hastily fixed clothes,sex hair,hickeys and blown up lips not to mention the blissed out look people are bound to notice.

Niall and Ashton took to teasing us.Luke and Liam didn't care that much to comment on it,Zayn wasn't bothered.Calum,who I still watched more closely then I probably should given my realtionship with Harry,shrugged it off.He sometimes joined in the jokes with Niall and Ashton but most of the time he sided with Luke and Liam.

Though there were times I could swear I seen something lurking in the depths of his eyes as he watched us.But then he'd blink and smile and joke and return to being Calum.But still I picked up the slight force in everything he done.Laugh,smile,look my way.

Louis was the same,or so Harry reported.I knew he still had feelings for the boy,just like he knew of mine for Calum.It was a topic we expertedly danced around all the time.Until today.

"Mikey?"Harry asked in a small voice.

I just stared at him.I could feel my eyes stay wide just as clearly as I could hear those four words bounce around my head.

I love you,Mikey.

We've been doing this for six months now.Half a year.Maybe I should of seen this coming.But,can anyone actually perdict where they're about to be ambushed?

"I-I-I-"I stammered smartly.

Harry has a slight half smile as he says,"It's ok.You don't have to say it back.I just needed you to know where I stand."

I nod numbly.The words deafening as they grow in volume.

"Ok,"I say shakily."I should go."And without another word from either of us I sprint out the door.

I know I like Harry,six months is proof of that.But I know I've been in love with Calum for years.I gave up on getting him when me and Harry first started.I figured ten years was enough pining.And I could love Harry.I think.

I'm just trying to talk myself into not ending this.I know with no Harry I go back to watching Calum lead girl after girl to his bed.I'll get to see the end result but never the process of how Calum looks the morning after.But Harry is a distraction.That sounds awful,but he gets it.Obvisiously.

When I get back to our bus there's only Calum on the couch,popcorn in a big bowl beside him,his favourite movies stacked in front of him and a fuzzy blanket covering him.I smile at the sight,not being able to stop the floods from my heart at the sight of him.