Mikey could never say 'I love you' to anyone.It had ruined past relationships with both weeping girls and guys.But he was terrorified of anyone having that power over him.
He loves sure,he loves pizza,ice-cream,fifa,his band.But most of all he loves Calum.His best friend for years and boyfriend of only two years.
He watches the olive skinned boy now as he messes around with Ashton.The two falling about and laughing.Calum catches Mikey's eye and grins.The smile causes Mikey's heart to lurch and automatically smile back.
Calum had confessed to loving Mikey just two weeks ago.Though it had made Mikey immensely happy he just couldn't say it back.Calum knew of Mikey's fear,how could he not?They've been best friends for years before they got together,so he didn't really expect Mikey to say it back.That didn't mean it didn't hurt.
Mikey chews on his lip.He knows he loves Calum,he thinks Calum knows he loves Calum.Luke and Ashton both know he loves Caulm,Mikey wouldn't be surprised if the outside world knew that he loves Calum.He doesn't particularly care if they know,it's actually saying it,given the person that power over him that annoys Mikey.
Rationally,he knows Cal would never hurt him,wouldn't dare use that power to manlipuate Mikey into doing anything.Cal knows he'd only have to ask and it would be done.But that's exactly what scares Mikey enough that he wants to curl in on himself and shut out the entire world.But he would miss the world,so it's a vicious circle.
Mikey begins to wonder if he should just tell Calum that he's a dead end.Unable to pledge his love to anyone.Tell Cal to go search for what he deserves.But Mikey is just selfish enough to keep Calum bound to him.And he hates it.
Calum drops down onto Mikey's lap.Hair tousled,lips spread over his teeth in a wide smile that makes a hand grip tightly onto Mikey's stomach and twist in all different directions,his eyes are glittering with happiness.He's so beautiful,Mikey thinks contently to himself,and he's all mine.
But is he truly happy?The most bitter part of Mikey snips at him,How can he be when I can't give him what he deserves?
Mikey tries his hardest to shove the dark thoughts away.But it's only so long till the spitefullness starts to leak in again.
"Mikey,"Calum whispers,gently stroking Mikey's cheek,"You okay?"
The touch makes Mikey shiver.Cal is addicting to him,he's always known that even when they were kids.He hated all the other friends Cal made.
Even when he was younger Cal was gogerous.With his perfect tan skin,lushious black hair,wide innocent eyes and his strong jaw.He has tons of girls fauning over him and guys circling like vultures,wanting just a fraction of the attetion Cal gets.Mikey didn't handle his jealously and anger well.But Cal promised to never leave him.
That promise carried on into their relationship.
Mikey shakes himself from the memories to smile winningly at Cal,"I'm great,babe,just thinking about the past,"He wraps his arms firmly around Cal,clutching Calum tightly to himself.
Calum beams even wider,causing Mikey to lose his breath for a second.It's cheesy and over done,but Mikey has no idea how else to describe it.He loves Calum so much it hurts.So why can't he fucking say it!
"Like the time you set fire to the school?"Cal teases,leaning into Mikey so that their chests are pressed right against each other and their lips are inches apart.
Mikey can't focus for a minute,"More like when we were younger and you were getting more friends."Mikey quickly avoids his past crimes.
It was an accident,but it was proof that Micheal Clifford should never be allowed behind a counter.Or at a cooker.First Cal smirks at him,"You're hot when you're jealous."Mikey grunts with a frown;then Calum wrinkles his nose,"You were so annoyed with me,"He pouts.
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My One Shots (boyxboy)
Fiksi PenggemarThis is largely going to boy on boy so if you have a problem with that then get lost. The couples are going to be Solangelo\Wilco, Malum and MAYBE Lashton. Oh, and some of my own creation thrown in.