Baby Boy (boyxboy)

Being on stage

After calum rushed through the crowd, I saw a part of a large gate from which I was guessing they entered to go on stage. As we went through the crowd they all were smiling and grinning at me, I smiled back even though on the inside I felt different. I was so anxious I was going to mess up and look stupid in front of the boys. I just wanted to look good. After we reached the stage I was assuming Calum would enter and someone backstage would escort me to somewhere special because I "won" something. I was completely wrong, Calum pulled me on stage with screaming fans.

It was hot, well it was July in Southern California so it gets hot but I think all the people in that area made it worse. There was bright lights flashing in my face and I saw phones and cameras everywhere as a sea of fans yelled out to the boys. I don't know how they do that all the time. After everything began to process in my head I had mixed emotions.

I was nervous to be in front of thousands of teen girls, I was anxious for what was going to happen, and happy I was with the boys. My emotions are clearly written on my face and Calum must have noticed so he put his arm over me again and began to speak. "Hey Los Angeles how are you doing today?"

I could hear his cute Australian accent and I could feel the bass of the speakers rumble in my chest. He continued "this is my friend josh" before he could finish everyone began to scream. At this point I was almost about to cry and I felt Calum tighten his grip on me. And pulled me closer as if he was sensing my discomfort. Continuing, "Josh was chosen out of everyone to be here with us today, I think he's a little nervous but I know how amazing LA is so be nice to him, or I'll come get you" as he said in a playful tone and he looked down at me smiling.

Then he began to speak again, "okay guys lets get this started, before we start say bye to Josh, he'll still be here but I don't think he wants to stay on stage" I smiled, it was as if he knew how I was feeling at every moment. I was ready to leave that stage. I saw a girl with a black shirt and shorts in the corner of my eye just out of sight of the sea of fans motion for me to walk off stage.

As I did all the fans began screaming and I waved towards them and hurried off stage. I could feel the adrenaline pumping through my veins, my heart was racing and I was breathing heavy. She welcomed me with a smile, "come here sweetie, sorry about that, we didn't know calum was bringing you on stage" I assured her I was fine and it wasn't a big deal. Even though I was flat out lying. I have never been so scared in my life.

I was in front of thousands of people. All of them seemingly staring at me. She smiled and brought me over to a couch behind stage with black cushions and a large TV mounted to the wall above. I could see the boys perfectly as the camera focused on each one. She offered me a water and I politely declined it, I was too pumped up to even feel anything. I just sat down and watched the screen. I guess it wasn't the ideal place but it was better than standing in a crowd of mostly teen girls.

I watched as Calum began a song, it was heart ache on the big screen, and I watched him as the sweat beaded on his forehead as he sung the lyrics. I watched his lips move and I listened to his voice as it almost echoed in my head. Almost as quickly as all this happened I fell asleep on the couch to the boys singing their solos and hearing Ashton's drums and the bass echo in my chest. I was sound asleep until I awoke to someone rubbing my shoulder "fell asleep there? Guess you're all burned out".