It's been about 3 months that I have talked or seen Shawn. The only time I see him in 4th period music but...that's about it. According to my dad he's 'no good' which I never really understood. My dad hasn't even talked to him, he based Shawn on his appearance which isn't that rebellious or...'bad' either.
I was out to buy groceries for my family and i's needs, last minute at 9:56pm of course. I walk through the rows of cereal when I came across my favourite brand. I smiled lightly picking the box from the shelves and placed it in my basket. I payed for all my items I have for my fam jam, got my bag, and walked. I continue to walk obliviously of what's going on, then i bumped into a larger figure and hit my head on the tiled floors of the super market. A soft groan left my lips.
The guy helped me up "oh god, I am so sorry, I've been a mess lately" he said as I stood on my own two feet holding the familiar feel of the guys hands. I take my hands back and tousled my hair back. Once my vision wasn't as blurry I see the familiar hands I held just before, and the face along with it
"Shawn?" I questioned. His less of a smile fades
"Y/n..."
My eyes became blurred from the tears forming
"I-I have to go-" I said running out of the store
"Wait!" He yelled chasing me as I dropped my basket in the middle of the floor instead of in the pile next to the door. Feeling a hand grip around my wrist, I was tugged back into someone's arms. I could smell Shawn's scent in his shirt. All the memories came flooding back, the two weeks that made me love him. That love was lost, but I have seem to have found it again.
"We shouldn't be doing this...but, I just, I miss you" he muffled into the top of my head
I shook my head and started to cry. I loved him and what he said was a lie. 'I was blinded by love and that My dad was right'.
In fact he lied to himself that I wasn't in love with him
"I love you" I replied. It was silent in the empty store. Shawn sighed
"Y/n..."
I got out of his grip "why are you afraid?"
He furrowed his eyebrows "afraid of what?"
I sniffled trying to hold myself together
"My father, me, love..."
Shawn's face softened as I stared him straight in the eye. I shook my head "Shawn if you did love me you would know to keep me because you know that's what I wanted-"
"ENOUGH! Okay I let you go because I loved you and you deserve someone better" Shawn snapped raising his voice
I wiped my tears away with a quick swift and looked up at the sky
"Shawn, no one can beat you. You may not be the most athletic, or get straight A's all the time, in that case you may not be the perfect boy...to my father, but your my perfect boy..."
Shawn sighed rubbing his head, squinting his eyes "what about your dad?"
It was silent, all that was heard was the soft sounds of crickets and moving cars. It was like this for a while when both had nothing to say.
"It was nice seeing you y/n" Shawn finally said turning his back away from me
I cried "you're not doing this again Shawn! Do you know what it felt like to not have you with me, near me...for those three months? Shawn it was hell-"
"WHAT ABOUT ME HAVING TO LEAVE YOU Y/N! And going on with life knowing I broke your heart? And-and knowing that I can't have you because I don't meet your fathers needs" Shawn cut me off as the street lights showed off the shadows and highlights of his face structure.
"You didn't have to leave me Shawn...you made that choice" I said making my voice crack.
Shawn looked down at his feet whimpering
I sighed "I still love you but..."
Shawn looked up "but what?"
I didn't know what to say, I was speechless. I had nothing to prove for me not to still love him. I wiped his one streaming tear away with my smaller hands against his face. I pulled him close to my lips and connected them with mine. I felt a once existing spark flame again. Shawn kissed me back holding onto my face before parting the kiss. He stared deep into my eyes as I stare back into his light caramel eyes
Shawn breathed "we'll work something out okay?"
I nodded as another tear slipped off my face "you-you still love me...right?"
"If I didn't I wouldn't of stopped you" he said giggling. Shawn held me against his body rocking me back and forth
"Loosing you...was the worst thing I've ever did in my life and..."
He stopped to fix my hair as I chuckled softly
Continuing, Shawn breathed "and to be frank...I...I don't care what your dad says..."
I smiled at him and kissed his covered chest where my lips happened to be
"Good...because I don't either"
