It's been...6 months now?..and I haven't spoke to Shawn in that matter of time. And it sucks because all I hear around me is "Shawn this, and Shawn that"
Because he is famous...but 6 months ago he liked me...and then all the sudden...he dropped me. I liked him so much, and I didn't even realize it at first. I knew he thought I was pretty and all, but I didn't want to be rude so I just kinda let him in, little did I know he would have a big impact on me after he dropped me. It wasn't until we stopped talking that i realized how much he means to me.
As always, I'm on my social media, and I scroll through my feed, picture by picture on Instagram, and I see Camilla's picture, you know...from fifth harmony. And out of the blue, I see a comment, that made my heart drop to my stomach
"@ shawnmendes--😍😍I love you baby"
My thoughts of me over him, were turned into jealousy...after all these months, I still like him. And I couldn't move on. But I knew it was time
I hope he, Shawn mendes, knows that I'm moving on too. But like him...I'll keep it a secret, not from the world, but from him
So that he can see that I'm doing just fine
I'm gone and I'm moving on, I've been saying that everytime I think of him, but this time I'm serious. I'm only hurting myself in the end...
The worst part is...is that he doesn't even know I still care.
I'm glad he's happy, I'm glad he's found someone pretty and better than me...I mean, good for him right?
It's been an imagination to have him in my life again, all I need is to share the same air as him, so that I'll never be alone. It's time to find someone that strings us into a good place, not me having to wait for something big to happen, it's a little to much for me to handle...and all I want is a life of the party. I was a kid in love,but I feel like it's crazy that he doesn't even know my name anymore. Maybe he does, maybe we can bring it back. I need some sort of stitches to heal the scares he left, a bad aftertaste in my mouth after I mention his name. This is what it takes...to finally take the weight off my shoulders...
And move on.
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I will never move on from Shawn trust...this story just has a lot of meaning...and I know it will be relatable for a lot of you guys...:)
Love you always
Drea🐱💝
