I looked at my reflection, seeing nothing but negativity towards myself. I poked at the imperfections on my stomach, and attempted popping the minor zits on my face, making them a major problem. I know I'm not the only one with these problems, but this is the worst state I was at. I mean my life couldn't be better, I had great friends and family, and let's not forget my amazing boyfriend that makes e feel beautiful each and everyday.
Today was different, I didn't feel at my happiest, which was odd.
My emotions took over me as all I saw in the mirror was an 'ugly girl'
Why did Shawn pick me?
"Hey baby! How was your..." Shawn barged in our room, catching me with a tear in my eye looking through the three way mirror. Shawn's smile was slowly drifting.
Shawn dropped his Walmart bag full of items and came towards me, wrapping his arms around my torso from behind. He placed his chin in my shoulder, kissing my neck before he spoke "what's wrong baby girl?" Shawn questioned me.
My heart sunk to my stomach, holding back the tears made my lip quiver. I couldn't take it...my emotions spilt out of me. Shawn was taken back; but not in that scared, weird way. It was an expression I couldn't describe, something that played on his face I couldn't figure out. But the emotion on his face didn't matter, it was the actions that made me realize, the feeling that was inside him for me, was worried, caring, but most importantly...surprised.
I turned around to face him, wrapping my arms around his neck, crying into his chest. Shawn soothed me "shh, baby...tell me what's wrong"
I sniffled trying to get my thoughts together "I-I don't se-see myself as...Shawn...I'm so ugly"
"Don't you dare say that y/n" Shawn said being protective. Unlatching myself, I looked into his caramel coloured eyes seeing a small tear form. He nodded his head towards the mirror I front of me "turn around"
I slowly turned around seeing myself, and a taller figure; being Shawn, behind me. I bit my nail looking at the sight in front of me. Shawn began to lace his fingers with mine, including my other hand closest to my lip. With that, I kiss the back of his hand, still holding it. Shawn whispers in my ear "now, tell me what you see..."
I sighed trying to find something positive... But so far, nothing is coining to mind. I shrugged "you...and, a girl that is under your league"
Shawn wrapped our arms together "hey...okay, not the answer I wanted, but here's what I see"
My eyes met his through the mirror. I showed him a weak smile as Shawn began to explain me, piece by piece
"Where do I begin...why don't we start from the outside in, yeah?" He asked for my opinion. I giggled softly attempting not to slip another tear from my eye.
Shawn kissed my cheek "from head to toe baby, I love it all. But there are a few things that make you, you. You're rocking body, that's all mine, the way the corners of your mouth curve into a small smile, getting bigger and bigger, every time you see me"
My cheeks are turning a soft pink shade as Shawn continued to talk sweet about me "and then there are the small feature, like your soft touch...when we lace our fingers together my heart beats faster and faster"
He let my hands go and held my waist. He whispered in my ear "and the bigger features; your bum"
"Shawn!" I giggled. Shawn smiled back at me laughing at his comment. Shawn Tucking a loose strain of hair behind my ear, he kissed my neck once again. I felt him smile when he peck me on my delicate skin.
Shawn said in the kiss "but it's true baby...and your beautiful laugh"
I turned around and kissed his lips "thank you Shawn"
He furrowed his eyebrows while smirking "I'm not done love, turn" Shawn pointed
I rolled my eyes turning myself around yet another time. Shawn slid his hands down my waist, tracing the lineament on my back with his longer thumbs.
Shawn sighed "that was only the half of it, you have this...breathtaking personality that anyone would kill for. You're caring, loving, beautiful, funny, protective, and may I add a really good kisser"
I grinned at him in the mirror while he stepped in front of me. As we intertwined fingers, a tear slipped from my eye. Shawn wiped it away "don't cry baby girl, remember what i told you..."
I chuckled pressing my lips against his. Shawn picked me up during the kiss, spinning me around making my laughter break the kiss. Shawn put me down holding a finger up as a wait symbol "I got you something...because it reminded me of you"
He went over to the Walmart bag taking out a chocolate rose. I smirked as he handed it to me
"It reminded of you because your sweet like chocolate but soft and delicate like a flower" Shawn said blushing like a little school boy. I smiled taking the gift from him "thank you Shawn, you make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world"
"No baby" he whispered back with a smirk
"Thank you for making me the luckiest man in the world" he kissed my cheek.
