Silas x Free

Say it (angsty)

Warning: sad (as the title implies 🌚) - I tried my best to make it angsty I don't know how well I did -
And Tis but an AU
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I lay there on Kris's couch with my hands on the back of my head.

"Well Free will you take it? As you know, everything will be paid for and you will be at a small apartment" she explains.

"... yes I will" 

I got up and left the room. I went to my room thinking about stuff I guess you can say. The first thing that popped into my mind when I heard her offer was Silas. God is there ever a time where I didn't think about him?

What'll happen when I go to Japan? Will I keep thinking about him?... but I'll lose my focus if I do that...

I was in the cafeteria finishing up my food when free came up to me. He looked tired like he's been stressing about something, not horrible though.

"Battle me in the abandoned beyblade arena" he stated.

"Oh ok uh hold on let me clean up" I said.

I threw away my tray and caught up with him as he was already near the doors.

We walked to the arena together but his mind felt like it was else where and I felt an aura from him.

"Hey Free you ok?" I asked.

"I'm... fine" he said as the word fine was dropped a bit.

I was worried about him. I mean how could I not? this was the boy I loved. Just been too scared to confess.

"If you win I'll give you a new piece of info" he said as we made it.

"Ooo like what?"

"Mm that's for me to know and for you to find out" he said.

After many hours of battling. I finally won.

"Alright tell me"

"... I'm leaving to Japan in a week... and I won't be back for a bit..." He explained as he seemed distant with both of our bodies tense and sweating, both breathing heavy.

"What's a bit? Like are we talking a month or two?" I asked.

"... a year, two if anything gets prolonged or paused" he said.

Light rain started trickling down.

"Why... so long?" I asked.

"It's for a competition... let's get back to our battle before the rain gets worse" he said.

With the next battle, Free wasn't really focused and he didn't really care he wanted to tell Silas everything. So of course Silas won. After the battle the rain really started to pick up and the wind was blowing wildly, making the two's clothes blow wildly with the wind. The two stood there for a second after picking up their beyblades. Silas was searching for any sign that Free was going to talk soon. The only thing he saw was Free crying... or was it the rain? No he's sure he saw him crying. He is crying.

"... is there more? If not let's go back in side the rain and wind is crazy!-"

"before I go I just need you to stay one thing..." the blonde said with his head and voice low.

"Sure what is it?" The older beyblader asked.

"say you don't love me and I'll walk away right here right now so i can know that there was no way you would've liked me back and say it like you're disgusted that I even though of that. I need to hear those words so I won't get home sick to my stomach and every thought, nerve, and blood vessel in my system isn't yearning for you each minute-each second I'm away from you!" Free asked and began to yell mid way since the rain got really loud. Tears still fell down his face and every emotion hit him like a train at the same time.

He was asking too much of the older beyblader.

"What?!... what are you?!-"

"I love you ok?! I'm deeply in love with you but I need you to reject me so I can move on and I can go off to Japan and win this competition!"

"... you... you coward! You're just gonna make me say I don't love you so you can focus on your fucking beyblading?!... You absolutely asshole! What about what I want?! Huh?! You're not gonna give me a chance to confess?!-" Silas yelled back tears filling his eyes.

"Don't give me that! Even still we wouldn't be good for each other! Just say it! And you can remember me as the asshole who did you wrong!"  He explains.

"Are you serious?! I'd would give everything and anything for you and you can't give up wining one competition!"

"Silas please! For me and my sanity... say it, say I'm some stupid teenager who never had a chance with you!"

Silas turned his back to Free.

"you are a stupid teenager and who will do anything to win, huh?!" He said as he left.

He left Free speechless, he stood there before he retired back inside.

And Free never saw him again before he left.