Always and Forever

bobby pt2

yesterday matt told me about his crush on bobby and the whole rest of the night i was mad. what was so good about this girl? what did she have that was better than me? like so what if her hair is long and a pretty shade of blonde, where mine is a bit shorter and dark brown. so what if her eyes are blue? mine are green! green is less common than blue. plus she's too short for matt. she's like 4'9" whereas matt is 5'11". as for me I'm the perfect height for matt. I'm 5'6". thats perfect! i don't understand whats so good about her. 

i spent the whole night just thinking about those words he said when we reached my house "i just wished bobby knew how much i love her." like bish whet? you met this girl today and you love her? is that how you fall in love matt? you just meet people and you "fall in love" if so how do you feel about me? we met 13 years ago! i finally was able to calm myself enough to fall asleep but it wasn't a good sleep. i kept waking up tuning this way and that way. and here i am now at 5:46 am. i really should be up in an hour. oh well.

 i slowly get out of bed so i can get my clothes ready. i picked out my light red coca cola shirt, light jeans with my white converse. i put those to the side and got ready for a shower. i grabbed a towel, my phone and i went into the bathroom. i washed my hair and body whilst singing my heart out to Beyoncé, Nikki Minaj and Ariana Grande. i finished and hopped out of the shower, wrapped the towel around my body and hair and walked back to my room. i got dressed and checked the time. 6:15. i walked over to my vanity desk and started on my makeup. i decided i would really try with my makeup so i looked good and so i started with concealer, then foundation, powder, winged eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow, blah blah blah. when i was done i still had time to do my hair so i dried it and straighten it. finally when i was done making myself pretty i had to eat so i went downstairs to get some cereal.

when i finished my captain crunch i looked at my phone and saw it was time to leave so i put my dishes away, grabbed my phone off the table, put on my shoes grabbed my backpack and headed out the door. just as i walked out i saw matt walking down my street towards me. great. just the person i want to talk to right now. what, had a dream about bobby? i thought to myself.

"hey jenna!!"

"hey matt."

he started jogging to catch up to me so i stopped to wait for him."got you just in time." he said after he caught up. "i wanted to ask you, can i come over tonight after practice? i can pick you up after gymnastics is over." he asked. i would really want to hang out with him but i feel like it would be awkward. whatever.

"er sure. but is this just an excuse for you to see bobby in a leotard?" i said jokingly. he looked at me with a raised eyebrow and one corner of hip lip curled into a smirk. i playfully punched him in the arm as we both started laughing.

"nah I'm just kidding, i wanted to hang out. study a little bit. maybe cheat off your answers." he said, the last part trailing off into a quiet murmur. i laughed but that shortly trailed off too. i suddenly felt... sad. worried almost. i turned to matt who was looking forward at the bus waiting just ahead of us. 

"hey matt?"

"yeah?" he said quickly turning to look at me.

"whatever happens between you and bobby, whether you date or not, just promise you won't forget about me?" my vision started to blur with tears so i bit my lip and batted my eyes a few times to draw back the tears. 

matt didn't say anything but pulled me into a hug and whispered in my ear; 

"never. i promise."

***

we entered the school and walked to class together.

the day went on and it was finally lunch time. yesterday i made a couple friends from classes. their names are lisa, morgan and veronica. they were also on the gymnastics team so thats a plus. i walked into the lunch room with my tray and looked round the room for them. i finally found them at a table which had some other gymnasts, and a couple football players i recognized from after tryouts yesterday. as i got closer i noticed that matt was over there. he saw me and waved to me so i waved back and at the same time i saw something that made my smile go away real fast.