I went to class after lunch break and the whole time I thought about Dan and what he has talked about. I wasn't able to concentrate on anything apart from my thoughts, so I was really glad when I got to go home. On my way back from school, Jack passed me up. He walked up to me casually as if never has anything happened between us. But when I looked at him I suddenly realised that he looked concerned. He looked at me worried and told me that we need to talk. Uh Oh, everyone knows what that kind of talk is about. So I started to feel really anxious, not because Jack was or will ever be the love of my life but I still didn't want to loose him. So I followed him in the park near my house. It was the park I always used to play in when I was a little kid and I still went jogging in it quite often. We sat down on a bench and he took my hand in his. I missed that kind of gesture ( I always felt so secure when he does that) but I knew that this time he'd done it for all the wrong reasons. My stomach felt sore and I couldn't speak at all, so I let him do the talking. He said that he was sorry and he really liked me and he enjoyed our eight month relationship but he felt like I wasn't happy with what we had so he wanted to end it here. Blablabla he went rumbling on and on. How he didn't plan to fall in love with Jenna but she was always there for him. WAIT! WHAT?! " Sorry Jack would you repeat that for me?" I shouted at him in complete disbelief. He looked beyond caught. "Jenna was always there for me and I could talk to her for days and she would understand all my feelings. Then one night we kissed and it was perfect but I felt guilty because of you, so I thought better end it so I can be with Jenna instead. She said you wouldn't mind if we had a relationship..."
I was at that point where I could do nothing but laugh about sh*t like that. So I started laughing really hard and told him to get the f**k out of my life and he looked at me frightened like I was completely insane, maybe I was but I am crazy so that's just a little addition. Then he walked away letting me sit on the bench laughing, when it suddenly started raining - a warm summer rain which felt really good on my hot skin- and my laughter slowly turned into sobbing. I just lost my boyfriend and a girl I considered my best friend. And the worst about this situation was the fact that there was absolutely noone to talk to. I couldn't talk to Jenna or Jack, I couldn't talk to Jenna's friends and I couldn't talk to my friends 'cause they hated me for leaving them just like Jack left me...
And now I know how much this feeling of complete betrayal hurts....
