My life with Sam Wilkinson

Chapter 30

I noticed getting nervous the closer I got to our room, I don't know how this is gonna end but I do know that Sam is pretty angry right now and fighting with him while he's angry always ends up with breaking things or just walking away, but I'm not gonna let him walk away this time.

I opened the door to our room and saw Sam pacing around probably thinking about what he is going to say. He noticed me coming in and stopped pacing around to look at me. "so?" he asked impatiently.

"So what?" I asked

"What do you wanna talk about?" he asked and I don't know if he was joking or not.

"Is that a serious question?" I asked him getting annoyed while walking towards him. "We started the day off so well and you ended up in TWO fights and to point out one of them was with your BEST FRIEND, tell me what your fucking problem is or I'm leaving" I said threatening him.

"Okay first off, he started the fight because your lovely best friend is in fucking love with you!" he yelled at me and I stood there in shock still trying to figure out what he just said.

"w..what? Jack is not in love with me. He is my best friend" I defend him

"Oh really? since when do best friends fight their best friends just because they think 'you're not getting treated right' cut the bullshit Jordan"

"He is with Madison if you haven't noticed already" I said

"That doesn't mean anything!" he yelled coming closer. "He is in fucking love with you Jordan, how can you not see that? The way he looks at you, the way he always comforts you when we have a fight" but I cut him off

"Who else is there to comfort me, huh Sam? tell me! because you're too busy fighting people and yelling at me every fucking day for a week now! I can't do this anymore, this is so much for me how can you not tell me what is bothering you? what did I do wrong? why are you letting your anger out on me? do I look like a fucking object to you? Because I sure feel like it. I tried everything but you won't tell me what is wrong. I love you so fucking much but you do nothing but hurting me. " I said tears already streaming down my face by now. "Just tell me what you want" I shout in his face "am I not good enough anymore?"

"Don't ever say that" he said his hands in fists. "You're too good for me"

"THEN WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THAT" I yelled

"BECAUSE EVERYONE IS PISSING ME OFF" He yelled and threw the night lamp around our room. "THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT"

"You slept with my best friend and didn't tell me about it, you probably never would have if I didn't heard the conversation and now you're still so close with him as if nothing ever happened. Do you think I like to see that? you guys fucked! this is killing me Jo. And now your crazy ex thinks it's the perfect timing for him to appear and confessing his love, this is not the fucking notebook okay this is the fucking real life and I can't stand him" he said out of breath.

"I..I-" I stuttered

"Yeah, you have nothing to say. As always" he huffed.

"It's just.. I never knew you had such a big problem with all of that" I said quietly.

"Well I did. I fucking did all the time okay? I kept my anger in me all the fucking time but I couldn't anymore. Jordan, you're mine, I don't know what I would do without you! just thinking about another guy touching you makes me want to punch the fuck out of him. I don't want to share you" he said coming closer again.

"I'm not gonna leave you because of anyone okay. you're the fucking love of my life and I'm yours" I said looking into his eyes.

After that he just kissed me, but not in a rough way, no. the kiss was passionate and almost desperate as if he needed me to kiss him like that, as if he needed proof that he is the only one for me. And he is and always will be.