My life with Sam Wilkinson

Chapter 21

After the Show we all chilled inside the bus. Jack and Jack were working on some new songs, Sammy was on his phone and I was just sitting here watching everyone.

I don't know what happened earlier but it's not like I didn't kiss him before. Before I met Sam, me and Gilinsky had a thing, we were like friends with benefits and that's when I met Sammy. He introduced us at a party and I felt attracted to him, we started talking and just got along very well. I started asking Gilinsky things about Sam just to get to know him and I thought Gilinsky was jealous but I doubt that. Anyway, I ended our little thing because my feelings for Sam started to grow. After all that we still wanted to stay best friends, I lost my virginity to him and he is there for me when I need him, I actually really had feelings for him but that was before Sam.

"Jordan?" Sammy snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?" I asked and looked at him.

"I asked if you want something to eat?" he asked smiling.

"Uh, no. no thank you. I don't feel good, I'm gonna go lay down for a bit" I said and made my way to the bedroom.

thinking about the past and all that stuff with Jack just brought up my memories and made me realize how close we were, my thoughts were interrupted when someone came in.

"Not now Sammy" I said and buried my head in the pillow.

"Well good for you I'm not him" I heard Gilinsky's voice. I turned around and looked at him.

"What do you want?" I asked him and sat up, he came over and sat next to me.

"I know you for years now Jordan, and I know something's bothering you. After the show, you know after the thing we had you kinda just spaced away. You ignored me and everyone else, including your boyfriend so just tell me what's wrong." he said and put his hand on my thigh.

I looked at him and he smiled at me giving my thigh a squeeze. I had to fight back the tears.

"I don't know Jack, I just thought about the past, you know when we were so close and had our friends with benefits thing, you were my best friend and I started growing feelings for you and then I met Sammy and everything changed, he changed everything and I'm the happiest girl alive with him but I .. I don't know what that was earlier"
I said with tears in my eyes.

"You know I actually started falling for you. Everytime we had sex I started falling more and mor-" Jack was cut off.

"You two had sex with each other?" Sammy said from the doorway. I was so shocked I couldn't talk, Gilinsky pulled away his hand from my thigh real quick.

"Are you fucking kidding me?" he started yelling.

"Sammy, it's a long story, it's not what you think I swear" I said walking towards him.

"Oh so you're telling me you didn't slept with your and also my best friend?" he asked sternly.

"I- i"

"don't you dare lying now Jordan." he said looking me into the eyes.

I looked over to Gilinsky and he just gave me an apologetic look.

"I did" I said "but it's-" he cut me off.

"That's all I wanted to hear, I'm done" he said and left.

"Sammy wait! please!" I screamed after him. everyone's eyes were on me and how Sam just left.

I started balling my eyes out and Gilinsky came over to hug me. I hugged him so tight and cried into his chest.

"He only heard that part, why won't he hear me out? I was about to explain" I said with tears coming out my eyes like a waterfall.

"shh, he has to calm down. You know him, he will be back later, I promise." he whispered in my ear.

"What happened?" JJ came with panic in his eyes. "Sam looked really angry, he punched a whole into the wall"

"He heard us talking" Gilinsky told him.

"About what?" he asked with confusion in his eyes. Gilinsky gave him a look and JJ mouth hang open.

"He found out?" he asked shocked and I started crying again. "But Jordan you had to tell him sooner or later" JJ said coming over and hugging me.

"I know, but I didn't want him to find out that way, he only heard the worst part" I cried into his chest.

"He's going to come back tonight, I promise. I don't know if drunk or high or just sad but he will come back. He always will" Johnson said and kissed my head.

"I just hope he won't do anything stupid" I whispered.