Scars

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I'm Alexa and this is my story.

Relationships. Aren't they meant to be filled with love and affection not bruises and scars? Well mine consisted of the latter option. As much as I hate myself to say this, I can't leave him. Believe me, I want to and have tried to many, many times but all that does is just cause me more pain. More scars to cover up, more reasons for me not wanting to look at myself in the mirror because I know it's not a true representation of who I am. When I do look in the mirror, I see a weak human being begging for help but that's not who I want to be. I want to look in the mirror and see a woman who is strong and independent. Being in this relationship blurs the vision that I have wanting to become that woman.

Being made to think that abuse is normal is a thought that no one should ever have. Expecting abuse every day is disgusting on so many levels. Nobody, man nor woman should go into a relationship fearing of abuse. Whether it's mental, verbal, emotional or physical, no type is abuse acceptable in society.

Leaving this relationship...now that's a dream that I've had many times. But everyday I wake up still in this, what seems like, everlasting nightmare.

Yes, I will be honest, when I first got into this relationship with Sam I thought he was the love of my life. I was mesmerised with how affectionate and loving he was towards me. He used to lavish me in gifts and treat me to anything I wished for, where now the most I get is a simple peck on the cheek.

Saying that I hate him is an understatement. I can feel my blood boiling every time I see his face or hear his voice but of course behind that is a girl who is scared of her own shadow. Yes, I called myself a girl even though I am 22 years old. The reason I call myself a girl is because a woman wouldn't stand for such a thing.

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A/N - sorry if this is crap but I don't plan what I write, I just write it as I think of it😂 probably not the best way!

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I will make the chapters longer as the story goes on but this is just a brief of what is going on so you get an idea of what the story is about.

~Chels✨