Drakes P.O.V.
I can't help but think of everything she has gone through. I know I should be comforting her but I know she don't want pity and that's not what I feel but I know that's how she would take it. So here I sit. In my office. Thinking.
Looking over I see her picture. I took it on our first date when she was laughing at me for getting the drinks spilled all over me. She still doesn't know this but even though it was a complete disaster...it was my favorite moment for us. She looked so beautiful. She does everyday but when she was smiling a genuine smile and laughing it was paradise... I wish I could get some of her back.
I know she will never be the same. I have accepted that. Hell I never had a problem with that. I just want to see her happy. I would do anything to see her smile that true pure happy smile again.
I know she loved to dance....it was her dream...but dreams can change, and she has the voice of an angel. So I'm reapplying her to Juliard. As a surprise...I know she will get in. I'm also applying her to some colleges that dabble in vocal training. I remember we had a small conversation of her dream. She wanted to be a dance instructor. But what about a music teacher...or a vocal trainer? I just want to see that smile.
Once I'm done finishing her applications I go to the kitchen and make her a sandwich and grab a bottle of mountain dew. Everyone knows not to touch the mountain dews unless they replenish it the next day. They could have the cans but not the bottles. The bottles were her favorite. She says they taste better. I don't know. I can't tell a difference.
I make my way into our room and see her in the same position I have seen her for the last week ever since she told her secret to Jayson. I don't think they have even talked.
"Hey baby girl" I said softly not wanting to startle her. Shes been jumpy and emotionally fragile the last week. It's like you bring something up and see doesn't wanna talk about it she I'll just shut down. "I brought you some lunch" I said silingbat her."
"Im not hungry." She said. She sounded dead inside. What's going on? She was doing great last week.
"Baby you need to eat. Even just a couple bites." I said sliding the plate toward her.
"Have you ever wanted to say I'm sorry but didn't know how?" She whispered.
"Well saying I'm sorry sounds good to me" I said bringing a chair towards her to sit down next to her. I couldn't let this go. This is the first time se hs really opened up all week....probably since she came back.
"No, I mean I know how to say sorry but what if its not good enough?" She said looking at me.
"What are you sorry for?" I said tucking her hair behind her ear.
"For being a bitch, for being ungrateful to be alive, for being a burden to the pack, for getting myself kidnapped, for allowing myself to be transformed into the monster I am...for not being a good mate to you, if it was any other couple. They would have done and completed themating process by now...but we haven't. And I know its because of me. I so sorry." She said as she started to cry.
"Baby girl, there is reason for you to be sorry. First of all you didn't ask to be kidnapped, second how dare you think your a burden to this pack? You basically saved their lives. They owe you. I know they don't know it but they should. And you need to tell them what happened. It would help a lot to let it out. Third, your not a monster. Your perfect. You had to survive. And if your a monster than so am I because I'm glad you killed all those people. If you hadn't you wouldnt here here with me. I would have done the same...if I had to choose between you and anybody in this world....including my own Alpha....I would choose you. I would kill anything that could possibly harm you. And I'm sorry but if that makes me a monster than so be it we can monsters together. And about the mating process? Baby we have our whole lives ahead of us. And to be honest I wanna marry you before we mate. You were once human...I think your dad would appreciate that." I said as I brought her face up to look at me. "Your perfect. Your sexy, your smart, you smell wonderful. Oh sweet Moon Godess do you smell good." I said and then I heard it. A giggle. Smiling at her I kiss her lips softly. "Your mine. Your my PERFECT mate. So perfect mate what do you say about throwing this probably sandwich way and we go out to eat...?"
Nodding she smiles. A true smile. "I would like that."
"Like it?! Baby you love it!" I said standing up and giving her a wink making her blush and giggle. There she is...my baby. My mate.
"Ok ok I love it."
"Good be ready in 2 hours." I said reaching the door to walk out.
"Hey drake!" She called.
"Yeah babe?" I said poking my upper body though the door frame to see her.
"Don't fall on your ass this time" she said smiling at me. Feeling my cheeks heat up I run out of there and to my office hoping she didn't see my blush.
Stopping in my tracks I just realized....she just teased me....and she smiled...and gigged....maybe this is the start of her being happy.
Mate happy now? My wolf said.
No not yet.. I said back.
She smile and laugh. Mate happy.
Not fully yet...
How much longer?
I don't know.
Why?
It takes time to get over something like this...we need to take it one step at a time. I explained.
Baby steps? He questioned.
Baby steps. I confirmed.
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