Lost in my own body

/Chapter 1\

I walked into school ready for another Monday of a boring double maths period and lots of... nothing actually, I'm pretty sure I will just concentrate on the maths part and not the part where the jocks get rejected big time by the cheerleaders. Not that I could concentrate on that. If I even take a look at those girls they snap at me like they do to the workers at Starbucks when they spell their names wrong. But something was different today, the empty chair beside me was full today. Nobody ever sits there, normally because they think I have some sort of disease. But there is a girl sitting there. She had long blonde hair and bright blue eyes. But she wasn't wearing red lipstick to try attract boys, she was actually wearing no makeup. Her hair was in a messy bun and she had her school planner out ready to right our lesson focus. I was trying to take everything in as I sat down, no one in the class besides me ever writes the lesson focus down. Sometimes even I can't be bothered. I think I may have stared too much because I soon realised she was staring at me for a while quiet confused. "Sorry, can I help you?" She said. "Oh sorry, I don't mean to be rude. I'm just a bit, curious about why your sitting here. Aren't you worried for your health and safety? Not that I'm a dangerous person or sick, it's just that some people think I'm a bit weird. Do you think I'm weird? I hope not because I'm actually a really nice person!!" Oh god.. Why do I always do this. Don't panic Cara, don't panic. Just start from the start. "I'm sorry I think I talk a bit too much. My names Cara. And your one is?" I signed in relief that this time I didn't sound like a freak. She laughed and replied "My names Elizabeth, but you can call me Beth. I'm from Australia, we just recently moved to L.A two weeks ago." This girl seemed really nice I thought to my self. "Oh wow, it must be hard to have to start a new school. Do you know anyone here?" I asked "No, unfortunately not. We had to move here because my dad had jobs to do here so we decided it would be a good change. I didn't really have the best life back there. I like to think of this as a new start." She replied. Wow I just had a 2 minute conversation with someone that wasn't about which burger I'd like to order at McDonald's. For the first time in ages I felt I could relate to someone. My mum was the only person I could relate to but maybe Beth was like me. In fact I saw something in her that I only see when I look in the mirror. Loneliness. I saw the empty hole inside her that needed to be filled just like the empty hole that my mum left behind. Who knows, maybe we can fill each others empty spaces. "If you'd like I could spend the day with you, show you around? I assume you've already got your locker and books. If you still have things to order you can share with me until you get them." "Thankyou, that would be great I was so worried I wouldn't find any friends but I think I just made my first one." She said. Wow! She just called me her friend, I haven't had a friend my age since year 6. Now I'm in year 11. Now that's a long time. Everything was so much easier when I was younger but I think it's about to get easy again.

Me and Beth spent the rest of the day together, then the next and the next day. In fact me and Beth spent the whole week together! I went to her house on Thursday, we did our history project together then we went to the mall and I slept over. It took a long time to convince my dad but he doesn't give a damn about me anyway so everything's good. I told Beth about my problems with my dad, school and I even told her about my mum. I haven't talked about it since what happened at school. Before my mum left I was just known as the nerd, but now I'm the nerd whose mum betrayed her. I once told Caitlyn (the cheerleading captain) about my mum. I should have known she wanted to start drama when she started being nice to me. She announced it over the loud speaker the one day that I didn't go to school because I was sick. The next day everyone started gossiping and looking at me weirdly. One of the girls from the year 12 class came and said that they were so sad about the news and hoped my mum came back. When they walked off I heard them giggling, obviously making fun of me. Since then I never brought it up, I didn't dare to speak about it. Caitlyn was suspended for a week but that didn't change the fact that I was now the lowest person in the school. But I trusted Beth, enough to tell her about my mum. But she didn't say that she was sad and she didn't feel sorry for me. She said "your going to find her one day, and if you don't you can just do what I did. Go off and start a new life, start from scratch." But she didn't tell me why her life wasn't good in Australia. But I didn't ask her, she would tell me when she felt it was right. The whole night we imagined what our lives would be like if we ran off to New York and formed a band, me the singer and her as the guitar player and some hot blonde dude to play the drums. We made up ideas about being free. And we wrote song lyrics and stories. It was the best night I had ever had in 3 years. She was the best think to happen to me in 3 years. I think me and Beth were friends. Infact, me and Beth were definitely friends and it feels awesome to say it.

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