Lost in my own body

/Chapter 6\

It's been 5 days since I've gotten a box. I'm worried that my mums given up. Maybe it was all something she thought would be a good idea but then changed her mind. What if she doesn't miss me anymore. Could that happen? Could a mum really and truly forget about her daughter. My dads been gone for days haven't seen him since the last box. I couldn't care less. He left me a note saying he's got some business outside of Santa Monica to attend but we both know that's a lie. I got up from comfy position on the sofa that I'd slept on last night. I got my keys ready to go out the door to school but then ran right back up the stairs. I wanted to look good. Feel good. Not just for myself, for Nick. I don't know why, he's witty jokes and stupid banter makes something about my messed up life, well, less messed up. I put on a white long sleeved crop top with some light washed denim overalls and my berry red boots. Tied my hair up in a messy bun and put some mascara on. I looked at myself in the mirror. "Ok, this should do". I said to myself. I smiled. It seemed like things were better. Without creepy boxes. But I still feel like something's missing. Like my heart is a jigsaw puzzle and that one piece that completes the picture is missing. Something is unclear and I'm afraid to know what it is. But more than anything, I want to know.

I pulled my car into the parking lot and smiled at the view of Nick. "You look surprisingly nice today" he said. "I can tell if that's something nice or something bad" I replied giving him a nudge in the arm. "Somewhere in between" he replied back smiling. We walked into school and went our separate ways as nick went to training. I took my diary out to check my first class. "Guess who" someone said closing my eyes from behind. "BETH! I missed you! It's been 5 days since I've seen ur faceee" I said excitedly hugging my bestfriend. "I know I know. Please, let's never be apart more than 5 days, I missed you" Beth replied. "My dads not home he went of to some 'business meeting' I can stay over for while if that's ok with you? I haven't met your mum yet she's never home when I come, I'll get to meet her!" I asked. "Id actually rather you not meeting my mum." I was surprised at why Beth would say something like this. I shared everything of mine with her. "But why?" I said. "I shared me entire life story with you. Did I do something that makes you feel you can't trust me?" I asked extremely concerned. More like worried. Worried that I would go back to zero. Back to the start. To the start when I had no friends, no Beth, no nick, no mum, no one at all. "Of course not! Don't ever think that." Beth replied back immediately. "Then why?" I asked. "There's something I haven't told you Cara, something big. Huge actually." "What is it Beth? What is this huge thing that u don't trust me with!" I now sounded angry. Angry that Beth was hiding something from me. I didn't want to lose her now, now that I've come so far in this journey. Why didn't she trust me?! "Come with me Cara. I'm going to tell you why. But first I need to show you something. Somewhere." Beth said. So without hesitation, I followed behind her...

HELOOOOO!! Its been so long. I've been extremely lazy and I completely forgot about this book. Sorryy. But I'm back into it and I've even figured out the ending and it's actually a big mystery. Hope you will like it :) also check out my new book "reality" it's slightly more depressing but I wanted to try something new with it. Check it out :)
Lots of love Yaren Xx