She Told Me Lies | The Joanne McKinley Diaries 1

She Told Me I Deserved Happiness

I walk into school the next day with the squad. Ha! With the squad. That sounds so funny. Th first thing I notice is that people are smiling at me. I don't know if they're smiling at me in a 'we saw your boobs' way or a 'we're sorry and we really know that photo was photoshopped' way. I guess I'll find out once I get to my locker. And I do. The red locker is covered in blue spray paint. The 'slut' comments have been painted over and, in its place, is one comment that warms my heart and turns my black soul grey.

We're sorry and I hope you forgive us. Stand up to Jayleen if she wants to hurt you or your friends. You're loved no matter what you think.
-Student Body

I smile so hard that my cheeks start to hurt.

"See something?" Mason smirks.

My eyes widen in realisation.

"You did this," I say.

"I may have just sent a group email to the entire school and got them to decide on message since they were all sorry. And they decided on this and spray painted it on your locker. I had school permission. That will be on your locker for as long as you want," he admitted on our way to form room. We were inside form and I couldn't help myself.

I threw myself at him in a hug.

"I told you that is prove myself to you. Do you trust me enough now?"

"Yes." And with that, I planted a kiss on his cheek. He smiled. I let him go and was going to go to my seat when he grabbed my waist and kissed my lips. He stopped. "I really like you." I smiled.

I'm about to walk to my seat when Jayleen comes in.

"Ew! I smell slut," she held her nose at the sight of me. I rolled my eyes.

"Leave her alone, at least she doesn't shake boobs for all boys in sixth form," Mai shot back. She had taken off her headphones and stood next to me by now.

"You really want to do this?" Jayleen threatened.

"You're not going to blackmail me any longer, you bitch!" She whispered. She stood up on the table in the middle of form room.

"Listen up. When I was ten, I got raped. They kept on doing it until about a month ago when I reported them to the police. I now live with my mum and the person that did it is in prison. I now feel at peace without him around. Jayleen was using this to blackmail me. The little bitch made me turn against my best friend. Thank you," she confessed.

I didn't know what I was doing but I found myself on a table.

"Recently, I tried to commit suicide because I thought I had no one. Jayleen turned my best friend against me. But her, Mason and Alisha helped me and got me help. I'm very lucky to have them," I confessed. Mai looks at me a mouths 'thank you'.

Then Mason climbs on a table. "My dad used to hit me as a small boy. He abused me badly until he got help."

I stare at Mason and climb to his table and kiss him hard. Before we know it, everyone's on a table and has confessed something dark about their past. All apart from Jayleen. She looks pretty guilty since she knows now that she drove me to suicide. She walks up to the table that Mason and I are on and looks up at me. She seems guilty.

"I am so sorry that I drove you to suicide. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being jealous of you and Mai and I'm sorry for being a class A bitch. Please forgive me," she pleads. One year escapes from her eye. I look at Alisha and Mai. They look away. I look at Mason.

"It's your choice."

I pull her up on the table and look her in the eye.

"Jayleen, you have driven me to suicide, taken away my best friend and been down right bitchy to me for no reason. But I forgive you. I believe in second chances. It just takes time depending on the offence. I won't be your best friend but I'll be your friend," I tell her.

She grabs in a bear hug. "Thank you."

The whole class breaks out in a round of applause. I hear people say 'Moanne' and 'Jason'. I hear 'I ship them' and 'OTP'. I hear people saying 'she's so forgiving' and 'idol'. I feel so happy and content. There is life after suicide attempts.

There's just the situation of seeing how Abel's going to prove herself.

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I get home and I smell paint. What was this woman up to?

"Abel! Abel?" I shout up the stairs. No reply. I climb upstairs and go into my room and scream in shock. My room has been turned into a combination of a tumblr and Pinterest room. I walk around, stroking my new stuff and my mouth hanging open in awe. I then scream and flop down on my new bed.

"I guess you like it then." I turn to see Abel in the doorway and she's covered in paint.

"How did you afford all of this?" I ask.

"You have a pretty awesome boyfriend. He got your friends to ask their parents for money and chip in."

"I am pretty awesome, aren't I?" Then Mason appears in the doorway. He throws himself at me I hug him hard.

"This is too much."

"I told you I would prove myself. The locker was the tip of the iceberg," he says.

"I also told you that I would prove myself," Abel says. "I'll show you that I am sorry. This isn't it. I will prove myself."

I turn back to Mason.

"I really like you." And kiss him.

"Sorry to interrupt you lovebirds but it's almost dinner time. Mason, you staying?"

Mason breaks our kiss to answer. "Yes." And he continues to kiss me.

"I'm happy you found a boyfriend. You deserve happiness."

As I pull away from Mason, I think about how Abel is changing and how she's doing all she can for me. How she's giving me genuine comments. Like just now.

She told me I deserve happiness.