A Closing Exist

Chapter 5

*Rose's P.O.V*

I coughed after the bitter liquid went through my throat then sucked on the lemon hard.
"God I hate lemons so much," I closed my eyes, putting my hand over my mouth.
I drank my third shot and felt dizzy already. Finn has been sitting on the stool next to my right, sticking to his beer, and eyeing me with amusement. I shook my head. Why is he looking like he is analyzing me? For some reason I feel small and vulnerable under his gaze. Before I took my fourth shot, Alison came to my side, panting.
"Well Adam doesn't seem quite fazed by me at all," she placed her forehead on my left shoulder then lifted it up immediately," what if he is the gay one?"
I laughed," maybe," I looked at her," try to flirt or something if I remember correctly you used to have your ways."
She nodded while smiling, then diverted her gaze to the man behind me," who is the god damn hottie that is eyeing you like a cheetah eyeing its predator?" she whispered.
"He is my boss," I said, fiddling with my fingers," Mr. Hall this is Alison, Ali is this Finn Hall."
They shook hands while Ali's mouth gaped.
"Finn Hall? Like the Bachelor CEO that owns millions and has over 5 companies?" She ranted.
For a second I felt that Finn had actually blushed," in flesh," he flashed her a smile.
She let go of his hand and looked at me," so you manage one of his companies?" She whispered and I froze.
"No no," I rushed and looked at him ordering another beer," I'll tell you later but please don't say anything about you or me please."
She looked at me puzzled," what is going on Rose?" She asked, concerned.
"Nothing major," I shrugged," please trust me."
She huffed," trust you? Bitch last time you said that you left me alone."
I furrowed my eyebrows, heart clenching," trust me on this one please," I grabbed her hand.
She inhaled her breath," I'm going to find Adam and tell him I want to make out."
I looked at her," what?"
"If he accepts then awesome if not then I will force myself on him until he grabs onto me," she looked at me," please tell me it is a good plan and that I should go for it."
"It is a horrible plan but you should definitely go for it," I smiled.
She giggled and hugged me," I'm not letting this go."
I nodded and pulled back," I'm glad I called you."
"So am I," she laughed and went off.
Once I huffed the air while smiling and turned my head to Finn, I found him leaning on his right forearm, stunned and cheeks blushed.
I coughed," is there something wrong?" I asked.
"It is just the first time I see you smiling like that," he said looking down at his beer.
"Like what?"
"Like you have no concerns," he flashed me a dimple.
As if. If anything your life is made out of concerns and alarms my subconscious said.
"Are you here alone?" I asked, removing a couple of stands off my face.
"No I came with a couple of guys," he said.
I nodded," then I should go you shouldn't let them go off alone."
"No no it is fine-"
"No it is not Sir," I smiled," it was nice seeing you again hope you have a good evening."
"Why do you keep on doing that?" He asked, eyebrows furrowed.
"Doing what?" I replied, placing my arms around my waist for protection.
"Every time I try to have a conversation or try to hangout with you, you brush me off, go away, or shoot me down," he said," am I that repulsive for you to do that? Just because you work for me?"
"Sir-"
"Finn," he interrupted.
"Sir," I stated firmly," I do not find you repulsive at all but I don't want anything other than work right now," I looked down," my life is not stable and hardly can handle one let alone two," plus I know you're one hell of a player I mentally continued.
"You know," he started to move towards me," for some reason I can't keep away," and now he was inches away," and when I am near you I feel of a certain need, don't know if it is sexual or emotional but it is something alright because I keep on getting nervous around you and trust me I don't like it but I keep wanting to see you."
I gulped, feeling my lips dry. His eyes tried to hide but they spoke so much emotions from him.
"I don't know what to say," I whispered not knowing if he heard me or not, while backing up I almost tripped on somebody's purse causing me to close my eyes and wait for my butt to kiss the ground but instead a firm arm was wrapped around me pulling me close to his chest. A muscular one might I add. I felt my head beating out of my chest and I couldn't help the thought of how my breasts were so pressed against his. Damn you big boobs. His breathing heaved and I couldn't look up at him. For the first time I felt lust. I felt like I wanted to bring his face down to mine and kiss his plum lips dry. Even with high heels I still reached his shoulder.
"You can't deny the attraction," he then nibbled my ear. I gasped and closed my eyes. My heart picked up its pace and I felt as if I'll pass out. I placed my hands on his abs trying to pull myself away.
"Yes I can," I looked up to his dark eyes," we are adults and whatever sexual feeling you're having now, you can take someone home with you I'm pretty sure you don't have a problem in that department," and then I ran. Yes, I ran like there is no tomorrow and found my way to the booth. I can see him staring at me even from afar. His friends came and he then looked away.
Even sitting here I feel my heart not slowing down and replying what happened is not helping. I got up and went to the bathroom again. Thankfully this time there was no line and I got straight in then locked the door.
"Hey you alright?" I asked my reflection.
I hummed while nodding.
"You're doing the right thing here," I said," you are struggling with the past and the cutting but that is alright everything will be okay," I pulled my fist to my chest where my heart was and started hitting my chest. It calms me down and makes my heart feel at ease. (Btw that is true cause I do that and it makes the emotional pain go away while I pound my chest). I need to leave now, this was a huge mistake. While unlocking the door I got a text from Alison.
Text received from Alison 10:30:
Cannot wait to tell the details girl. I just headed off with Adam back to my place. See ya. XOXO.
I pulled my phone away and headed for the back exist. I got greeted by a cold breeze and stood to enjoy this moment. God I love winter, everything just seems to be so slow.
"Coincidence?" A voice erupted from the alley.
I opened my eyes to find Finn with a girl. A smirk blasted on my face as I looked down. Good thing I prevented what was going to happen previously.
"You know her?" The girl looked up to him with a smile then back to me," she's cute think she'd tag along?"
"If she were I'd take her alone," he looked at me. My eyes felt like they fell out of their socket and my heart just wouldn't stop goddamn pounding.
"Shame but then again I have all of you to myself," she licked his jaw and I bit my tongue.
Whore.
"Excuse me?" Finn asked, smirking," her name is Valentine."
Suits her pornstar name.
The smile kept in his face while she kept on trailing kisses down his neck. Did she really not notice that he wasn't even paying attention to her?
"Oh for fuck's sake," I exclaimed walking away then stopped.
No no continue walking my subconscious said.
I took a breath then turned to meet his eyes.
"I don't know why but part of me wanted you to prove me wrong and come after me when I walked away from you."
"Well I guess now you know what type of a guy I am," he said blankly.
The tears were stinging my eyes," yes," I said in a low voice then screamed," a man fucking whore."
Hope that felt good cause you just got fired bitch my subconscious snickered.
His eyes got darker and clenched his jaw tight. My chest is now rising and falling heavily and my legs felt like they were about to give out. I took my heels off, feeling his eyes on me. I then took my hairband off and brushed my hair with my fingers. With that I walked away. However, I heard footsteps behind me and I got irritated.
"Would you stop-"
He turned me and placed his hand behind my neck and greeted his lips with mine. I didn't know how to react because he didn't give me time. He didn't even wait for a permission, he hungrily roamed my mouth with his tongue. To be honest breathless would be an understatement and if it wasn't for the wrong place at the wrong time I would've taken things further, but I just couldn't bring myself for it. I couldn't get through the pain and the heartache over again and I would certainly not let him pity me once he sees what is underneath. I've seen the way people treat the "weak", the pure disgust in their face and hatred in their eyes. Weak has been one of the many labels I got, by others and myself. Once I gathered my thoughts together I mustered the will the pull away.
"W-what are you doing?" I tried to catch my breath.
"What does it look like?" He tried the same thing," I'm kissing you."
I closed my eye and placed my forehead on his shoulder," do you do this with every girl you see?"
"What?"He asked confused.
I looked up at him," do you fucking do this to every fucking girl you see?" I shouted. His lips parted but no words came out," I am a girl with feelings and I object to have some player even if he's my boss to play and humiliate me whenever he feels like it," I pulled my hair from my face," I mean for god's sake a girl was trailing kiss on you a few minutes ago."
He was about to talk until I felt a pang on my chest. I held his shoulder for support and clutched my chest. This can't be happening right now. I closed my eye and tried to breath. I felt his hands go around my waist for support.
"Hey you okay?" He asked," Rose are you okay? Fucking answer me," he shouted, shaking me.
"N-no," I can't breath," p-panic attack."
Then it was went blank. So much for no judgement.
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Hey guys,
So I hope you enjoy this chapter, I tried to make it long but I knew I'd leave it till later if I did so I updated it now... Anyways, have a good day lovelies. Vote, comment, and follow :$. Oh and I think I have some suggestions onto whom will play Rose. Keep smiling.
Love,N. xxx