Falling for my boyfriend's best friend(Phil Lester/ Dan Howell Fan Fic)

Chapter 10

Raven's POV

I walked downstairs to an interrogation room when I saw Phil, heading towards the one I was going for. I didn't want to go near him so I slightly turned to go the other room. I turned the cold metal handle to see a female police woman and a male social worker. The social worker put his hand towards the chair which meant sit the fuck down.

"Ravenna, we have some bad news." The social worker told me as I was sitting down.

"Everyone calls me Raven" I told them.

"Well, due to the recent outburst in the prison that both of your parents are in, I'm sorry to say that your father has died , but your mother is in the hospital due to major injury. You will be required to stay here until she came sign forms for you to live with her and for her to have custody or if she signs the abandonment forms to leave you here for someone else to adopt you. You will have no contact with your mother until she is well and healthy again  or you will be left here forever." The policewoman told me. Great. My world is crumbling. First dad, then Jessica, then Phil, and now Mum?! I can't be leave this world. I should leave this world. I heard a door close and looked outside the window to see a lonely Phil, walking up the first set of stairs out of 5 to get to his level. Was he innocent or was it that he really loves Jessica? I stood up quietly and put my hands on the table in front of me. I walked out and walked to my room to find Susan, asleep. I couldn't take it anymore. Phil betrayed me and my father never treated me like no one should ever be treated. All of this is my fault. I started it, So I'm finishing it.

I walked to our desk to get a sheet of paper and a pencil and began to write my note. I'm sorry Phil, but it's for the best.

Dear Phil, Mum and other loved ones,

I'm sorry it has came to this, but I'm sorry I have ruined your lives for all of you,                                            To Phil,                                                                                                                                                                                I'm sorry about me wasting your life for so long. You could have done something great like became a weatherman or something, but you are better with Jessica. Your mum was right, I'm just a slut that everyone knows but everyone hates.

I'm sorry

with much love, Ravenna Grace Buxton

I got some tape and taped it to the outside of the bathroom door and started looking for my only real friends. I found them in a box of pads that I had that never was pads.

"Hello old friends, long time, no see" I said as I started to cry a little. I picked up one that had dried blood on it from about a year ago. His name was Kyoya because he was the smartest of them all. He knew how to get the job done. I layed Kyoya on my arm, waiting for someone to stop me, but no one did. After about 10 minutes, I decided to run the silver sharp blade across my arm, letting the blood drip onto my clothes and floor. After a little bit, I heard our room door open. I didn't want to clean up my mess. I didn't want to get up and face the person in our room. I just layed there, on the floor as the blood slowly dripped onto the cold tiled floor. I heard the bathroom door open quickly and I saw a face that I could barely see. I knew who it was. I heard him crying and I tried to open my eyes, but all I saw was blur.

"I'm sorry..." I made out to him and I closed my eyes slowly. The last thing I heard was him yelling to get help. Leave me here to die Phil.