Tormented Future

Fallen Tears

Time had passed I wasn’t sure how much but I knew we had stayed hugging each other and crying together for a while I knew this because my cheeks burned from all the tears I was surprised I had any left at all. We eventually broke away wiping away the fallen tears. We fell silent as neither of us had any idea what to say. This was never the case between me and Katie we could always find something to say to each other even if it was completely random and crazy. That’s how I knew; from the silence between us that night was worse than what I could remember.  A few more moments had pasted and Katie was the first to speak “I was so scared when I heard you scream and shout for help down the phone my heart sunk, it broke in two Maya I was so scared I was shouting down the phone crying my eyes out, my parents heard me and came running I explained what had happened when you picked up the phone again and we all came looking for you, we had rang everyone and they came out to look so fast and neither one of us knew which rout you took so we split up. My mam and dad took the car while on the phone to your parents. Am so sorry Maya I wish I had found you, I wish we found you sooner. I should have walked with you we all should have” she says looking down to at her hands as she got to the end. I could tell she blamed herself but it wasn’t her fault.

“It’s not your fault Katie, I’ve walked to the bus stop many times on my own, no one was to know that this was going to happen. It’s no one’s fault, you weren’t the one that Ra-” I couldn’t finish that sentence even though I had said it out loud before it hurt too much emotionally, and the physical pain I felt as well was too much to take. I felt overwhelmed thinking of everything, “I want to be alone now” I said coldly.

“Maya..” she protested

“Just GO!” I shouted not giving her a chance to finish. I knew I’d hurt her by doing this but I just wanted to be alone, she gave me a hug “I love you Bumblebee” Bumblebee was the nickname she gave when we were kids and it made me smile.  To let her know we were ok and that I didn’t blame her in any way I said the one thing she needed to hear, the thing I didn’t say often not even to my parents “I love you too Little duck” I knew she was smiling as she closed the door behind her.

I lay back on the bed surprised I had tears left to cry.

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I had fallen asleep and my mom shook me awake. “Maya sweetie, wake up your doctor wants to run a few tests.” I sat up looking around the room to see a male doctor stood at the bottom of my bed reading my chart.  “NO!” I shouted and he looked up, “ I want a female doctor, I should have a female doctor” I continued.

“im sorry, I will assign you a female doctor, I should have thought a do apologise” he says as he turns and leaves the room.  A few moments passed and a female doctor enters the room.

“I’m doctor Caroline Smith. I would like to run a few tests and depending on the results you may be able to return home today.” She says in an irritated tone, I guess it was because she had been handed my case and I was being a difficult patient. I don’t blame her for being irritated but still it was unprofessional for her to actually express this. I wished I wasn’t here. She ran a few test took some blood, didn’t she think I had lost enough? She took my blood pressure and told me to follow the light.  She checked my leg removing the bandages and looking at the stiches I was sure where there. Whenever the bandage got changed I couldn’t look not that I wasn’t interest in the damage he had caused to my leg but because I knew that If I did I would scream and everything would come rushing into my mind. I didn’t want to be reminded of the monsters hands touching me even though I could still feel them I didn’t want it to be more vivid then it was.  After bandaging my leg back up she finally spoke

“ your concussion is mild and should disappear in a few days. You have a lot of people waiting to see but I recommend that you rest. So I will be telling them to leave. The police are here and they need to talk to you about what happened if you feel up to it. I also have to tell you we done a rape kit when you were brought in with the permission of your mother.”