Dai

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Fear has struck the hearts of those who live in Dai ever since the first human has set foot in this world. He chose the name "Prime" as he realized his strength and position as the very first and strongest god of this world. One of the very first wars ever waged against gods was the war of rivers. Blood of countless innocent people created rivers of horrifying future to come. Years went by and people of Dai admitted their ever lasting weakness, they surrendered to the humans.

This was one of the very first lessons Hama taught me the next morning. She brought a table before my throne and arranged many books that she used to explain many things to me. The history of Dai is so beautiful and ugly. When entangled with the actions of humans, it becomes utter chaos.
I noticed Hama's voice and eyes, they were always avoiding me. She seemed forced to be with me, like she had no choice. I wanted to know more, but it was obvious: humans aren't gods to these people, they are the destroyers of hopes and dreams.

A courier arrived with a black box that had writings in the same language i couldn't understand. Hama took the box and put it before me. "Do.. All other humans fail to read this language?" I asked, she remained silent and opened the box. The shining ring caught my attention. It was a silver ring, too big for anyone to wear. "Please, try it on my Lord. This is our humble gift for you. The only mystical item we can craft here is the LanRing. This will allow you to speak and understand all languages of this world..." LanRing...? That was the thing that stranger told me about! The horrible images of the poor devoured man sickened me. I held the extra large ring and tried putting it on. To my surprise, the ring quickly shrunk down to accommodate my finger and was a perfect fit for me. I had to try it, my eyes quickly glanced at the box and it suddenly made sense. I saw the weird letters but the meaning reached me. "Gift of Stopp People to Lord Soul" i whispered. This is truly mystical and fascinating. My eyes turned to Hama, she was pouting, perhaps more than that.

The distant echos of singing and prayer were undisturbed, we were silent as time didn't seem to matter anymore. I was unsure if it was due to the ring or if it was this world giving me this feeling, but it felt like i knew or sensed parts of her feelings.
"You hate me, don't you Hama?" She flinched, it's like i hit a nerve. She remained silent, "You hate all of us, i don't really blame you. Knowing what i know now, i'd hate us... I'd hate me too" her head began to sink lower down. I had to relief her "Hama, please..." I reached for her face, trying to pull it up. She was crying...

"Why... Why are you so different from them? Why?" Her voice was shaking. Her eyes looked into mine, so red and confused, her feet were quick as she ran out. I could hear the heavy wood sounds of the front doors of the temple. Tightness of chest, heavy breath, what's wrong with this image...? Why does it feel painfully nostalgic? A voice inside, screaming for me to move and chase aftrer her.

If you stay still, you'll kill another heart!

My body was moving faster than ever before, i had no time to waste. The front doors, i can't afford to wait!
Suddenly the day light was surrounding me. I quickly glanced back to see both heavy doors shattered to pieces. Did i do this? I couldn't believe it, i had no time to be amazed anymore. I kept running down the street, it was weird but i could smell her salty tears pulling me towards her. I didn't care about the people kneeling, i didn't care about this stupid damn world or its rules. It's time for me to shatter it all, i have the power to change the world here at last!
I hit a dead end, i was so focused on reaching her that i ended up at a back alley. I felt the warmth of her tears, radiating and seeping through the walls.

Is this really it... Am i always this helpless? Will i keep having strong resolves with no means of achieving anything? Why?
The heat built up in my chest, corrosive and sickening. Dizziness that originates from realizing how weak you really are, how things work against you with no regard to your efforts. Am i still waiting to be taught? To learn the lesson too late? I needed no reason, i had no logic anymore. My inner berserking rampaging self shall take over me.

My eyes penetrated the limits of space, beyond the barrier of time. My strength over this world is limitless!

I felt my rumbling heart dancing, it wasn't a dance of happiness or rage, it was beyond all emotions, above all feelings, a dance of freedom. It was as if this world itself was an extension of me, a continuation of myself, a part of me while i'm part of it.
Feeling nostalgic, my head kept jumping between the fights i had, the rage that filled my denying heart. The other place my heart longed for was a time of utter happiness, a time of no worries, pure joy, her smile...

I was awakened by the loud sounds of grinding and breaking of rocks. My eyes couldn't believe it, my heart knew it, deep down, i was influencing the world. The entire house along with its walls and rocks was moving in front of me to open a new path, a way to reach her!
It was me, my power, my strength moving this all, influencing this world endlessly. I finally saw her at beyond the newly made road, shocked as her red eyes were glued onto mine.

She hasn't moved a muscle, her body seemed to be frozen in place. It wasn't fear, but rather, my own heart reaching out and holding her still. I walked towards her, her eyes were crying for help, her heart still carries rage and hated me, everything about me. I smiled towards her, a true smile, one i forgot how to make years ago. My hands slowly reached towards hers, my fingers touched her soft ones gently, holding them tightly.

She gasped, the blinding light surrounded us, it swallowed the world around us and we suddenly became in an endless desert of white soft sand. The wind was cold and carried her aromatic emotions. She was confused, but finally spoke "T...this is my heart!... H..how did we...?" The answer came from me this time, i was wondering where my newly found knowledge came from. I had all the answers, it seemed fitting to the title these people gave me, the position this world promoted me to.
I no longer felt my heart beat. Entering Hama's heart space was something i knew and understood as if i've done it for ages.

"I had to come here Hama... I had to finally fix a heart instead of ruining it. This time, i have the power to do it, i will fix your heart Hama, even if what it takes is my death!"