Bargaining

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If I do something I love, maybe it'll stop this from upsetting me. I'll just focus on my passion: art.
I started sketching and painting a lot, to take my mind off of things. It would all be fine, it would be fine if I didn't think of him. But, every time I drew, it reminded me of him. I don't even know why, it just did. Maybe it was because in high school we used to draw together, and he inspired me.
I've been doing this for days, trying to take my mind away from him and the voice inside my head. It wasn't working. I would wake up and draw, go to my classes, come home and draw, sleep. Every day. But somehow, he always got into my head. I could hear him crying and speaking incoherently in my head. I wanted to get to him, but I couldn't.
What's the point? I can't do anything without thinking of him, I miss him. When you spend your life with someone, and lose them out of nowhere, you just break. I need him again.

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