If I Stay

Chapter 35

Michael prayed that he died an innocent man when he meets Jesus. " Your wasting my sweet time my dear daughter. Can you let him die?" Kyela was sick to her stomach. "I'll prove his innocence can you take him to a fair trial? I can tell you he is a good person he is a good father and he just made one silly little mistake dropping my son out of the window I know he wouldn't do it un purpose he was just showing his son some clouds and there was a bee on Michael jr. He swatted the bee away and he arm was holding him a little loose and the bee landed on Michael he freaked out and accidentally dropped my son, he felt really bad this happened and he started to apologize to me and I told him it was alright he is still good to my twin daughters. It wouldn't be fair if you took my daughters father away from them and for me to be raised as a single mother you guys need to care about people sometimes." The guards let him go and Kyela ran to Michael crying tears of joy he's not going to die. "See? he didn't hurt me. I'm not going home mother." She put her hands across her chest. Michael pushed the carriage and kissed his children sweetly. "I'm so glad you came princess." Kissing her for a while. "Can you give us a ride back Joe?" He nodded his head stunned that Michael was released.

After the whole nightmare the whole family had a big lunch since they were pretty hungry. Kyela was feeding Michkyela and Michelle with breast milk. "Babe do you have to do that at the table?" She eyed him. "Why yes, I can eat at the same time for myself to." Michael was eating his food staring at them eat. After she was done she took them to the nursery and went back down. "Ok Michael I'm done, I have to feed Prince Charming after lunch to." Michael shook his head back in forth. "That silly frog." Kyela laughs and eats a nibblet of her sandwich. "I'm happy to have you home again." Putting a hand on his leg. "You are the lady of my life." Kyela took the plates away Michael follows and puts an arm around her waste from behind. Michael was putting away Michael jr's half side of the room away and taking down his wall paper he holds back his tears as he cleans out his stuff. "Is everything alright honey?" Holding Prince Charming. "Yeah I'm just tired." He lies. "Are you still sad about our son?" She asked stopping him in his tracks. "Baby it's ok I'm I don't think we should talk about it now." He slouches and walks to their room with his head down sighing. "Don't hold a grudge against yourself. It was an accident. I forgave you remember?" Michael was flashbacking the day he saw his son fall. "It's hard for me to forgive myself over something I never done like this before. I'm pretty sure Michael jr. is angry at me. I don't want to talk about it." He rest his head on the desk holding his anger inside so he won't get mad at Kyela if she bothers him about it. "I'll be back if you need anything" Taking Prince Charming with her to the nursery. "Princess I'll be back." He took the care keys and started to the door. Michael looks for a nearby bar and finds a place called The Beer Company. He walks in and ignores the stares he gets he sits at booth away from the crowd watching football on tv the customers were fighting over which team would win and they cheered on the teams they rooted for.

"Two shots of Bud Lights please." The lady made the Bud Lights and handed it back to him. He took the first sip still thinking about his son and slams the empty glass on the table. He watches bits and pieces of the football game. "I can't go home." He says to himself, he drinks another shot of Bud Light. "Excuse me two more shots of the same beer." The waitress took his cup and refilled it again. After a couple of more drinks he was a little wobbly and tried to walk straight. He was in the and sped home not being himself. "Honey I called you one hundred times where were you?" He didn't respond he was still a little drunk and fell on the couch out of balance. She rushed to Michael and sat him up straight. "Um baby have you been drinking? Tell the truth." He put his finger up telling her to wait. "No I was just out for a drive. I hate myself." Kyela makes him take a drink of water to detox the alcohol from his body. "Michael you shouldn't stress yourself out like this." Michael got up and walked towards Kyela. "Honey sit down, your drunk." He didn't listen and walked upstairs slowly walking up the stairs like a tight rope walker. Kyela followed him to their room. "Oh wow there are fairies outside let's catch one." She tried not to laugh. "No there are no fairies out and stay away from the window." Pulling him back. "Here I got one  for you." He put out his hands, she nods her head and put him on the bed and went to lock the window. "She turned on a movie for him and left him in the room so he can sleep.

She went to the nursery to check on the twins and they were awake crying in the crib. "Ok Michkyela and Michelle nap time is over." She rocked them back and forth to stop them from crying. She sang them a little lullaby to calm them. After they were calm she showed them the toys that she bought. She shook the baby rattle that made the sounds of bells. And they laughed trying to grab it. "I love you guys." Kissing both of them. Michael walked into the nursery a little drunk. "Hey lady bugs." Kyela carefully moved away from him so that the same mistake won't happen again. "Go back and lie down your not safe to be around them yet. "I want to see my daughters." He whines. "Yeah tomorrow now sleep." She orders, Michael rolls his eyes and she can smell the beer in his mouth. He sits by the side of the room Michael jr used to stay again he just stared into the blank wall touching it.  "I miss you son." He bangs his head on the wall crying. "Michael your scaring the kids." He kept throwing things at the wall as hard as he could. "It's my fault why did we even have the babies in the first place?!" He shook Kyela a little rough. "If I didn't make love to you this wouldn't have to happen! I'm sending our daughters for adoption, you don't have a choice Kye I can't do this anymore." He smacks her in the face and she falls to the floor on his knees. She choked up on her tears. Michael didn't mean what he said maybe he is still drunk maybe he'll forget about this tomorrow. How can he let this take over his life? Michael sits back into his sons spot of the room flash backing to the first day he was born and how happy he was to be a father holding him in his arms and he can almost feel his touch. Kyela tried to walk up close to him but Michael held out a gun. "Don't worry about me I need time to be alone."

She took Michkyela and Michelle out of the room and closed the door going to her and Michael's room. She locks the door and puts the girls to sleep. She watches tv and ate some candy that was left in the draw. Michael was passed out on the floor with all of the puke from the alcohol on the floor. The funeral will be worse then Michael's depression now he's really going to have a fit. Planning for funeral arrangements isn't easy. He is going to have a hard time to let go.