difficult (5sos fanfic)

two

My heart started thudding as we pulled into Calum's driveway. Never in a million years would I have imagined going home with a boy the first night I met him. I ran my hand through my hair - a nervous habit I developed in middle school - and looked over at Calum. He smirked and opened the door, motioning for me to exit too.

"Nice house." I slapped myself on the inside. I kept embarrassing myself but Calum didn't seem to mind. He put his hands in his pockets, rocking from foot to foot. "Thanks. It's pretty new so it's not very decorated." I smiled and shook my head. "Well Calum, that's a dealbreaker. I'm going home."

We giggled and he started unlocking the door. As I stepped in, I saw the walls were a muted beige, with white accents. He led me up the stairs. "My room's just down this hall," he said, leading me down the hallway. I remembered how this all happened.

We had dropped off Sara at her house and left my car at the bar, which wasn't too far from here. The ride back we spent in silence stealing glances at each other. I couldn't tell if Calum was interested in me for my personality or for my tight-fitting dress.

Whatever the reason, I was glad to have a boy notice me. I've had a few relationships in the past but nothing serious. The longest lasted 5 months. It ended with him using the classic "it's not you, it's me" excuse which I didn't believe for a second. I wasn't affected as much as some other girls might be, over the years I learned how to be strong and love myself.

I was pulled back to reality as Calum brushed his hand across my arm, giving me goosebumps and sending chills down my spine. I looked up at him and he was staring forward, looking out the window across the room. I took him in, the way his hair was messy and curly but not to the point of looking undone. His perfectly sculpted jaw, his lips, and his magnificent dark eyes, everything about him was just so beautiful. He caught me staring and I quickly looked away, feeling my cheeks heat up a bit.

He grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. We stared at each other for a while until his eyes flickered down to my lips. We both started leaning in and then he kissed me, not hard but not soft. It was warm and inviting, and made my stomach flip over itself multiple times. He wrapped his arm around my back, pulling me closer. He licked my bottom lip, and I opened my mouth to let him in. He took one step back toward his bed, pulling me with him, not once breaking the kiss. My heart beat faster as I realized he was getting straight to the point. His hands moved up and down my sides, and lingered under my shirt. He looked at me, asking if I agreed. I nodded and he pulled my shirt off,

He walked me to the bed, and I knew there was no going back.

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My alarm went off, making me groan. I hit the off button and sat up in bed, rubbing my eyes. It's 7:30. I have work today. As I opened my eyes, I suddenly panicked because I wasn't sure where I was. Then it hits me.

I'm in Calum's bed.

I don't know this boy. All we did was have sex, and now it's bound to be a one night stand. I can't believe it. All those drinks actually made me willing to go home with a boy I just met and have a fucking one night stand. Yes, he's hot and pretty great in bed, but still. I can't believe I let myself go that low. If anyone finds out, I'll always be called easy or a slut.

I sighed and got out of bed, still sore from the night before. As I passed the mirror, I gasped, noticing the dark bruises on my neck. I made a mental reminder to wear my turtle neck sweater today. I heard Calum shifting in the bed and looked over to see him open his eyes and look at me. He smirked and I smiled back lightly.

"Somewhere you have to be?" His raspy morning voice sent chills down my spine. He was so hot, everything he did was just plain sexy. He must get a lot of girls. I'm not special.

"What? Oh um yeah. Work." I shrugged and he made a pouting face. "Let me at least drive you to get your car?" I lightly smiled and nodded. I don't have a choice.

He opens the car door and I got inside, sitting in silence the whole way to the bar.