Dying, Dead (Johnnie Guilbert)

2.1

I hate Damon. He knows about Connor and he still cheated on me. Every other boyfriend(2) I had before Gus cheated on me too. I'm done with them, I'm officially done. Damon tried to get into my room but it's still locked. I literally feel like death. My head hurts and my eyes are swollen. I can't even think straight.

The meet up is today so I got ready by putting my high waisted skinny jeans and a crop top on. I used the bathroom in my room to do my makeup and take a shower, ya know, all that stuff.

I then sat on my bed and waited until the meet up. I'm not ready to see Damon yet. Every time I think of him my stomach drops and my heart hurts. I get a headache whenever I see his name on my phone, which is often. What if the fans ask about us? I don't want to lie to them, they're family.

*knock knock knock knock*
I heard Patti's signal it was okay to come out of my room.

I walked out of the room shaking. Oh gosh don't have a panic attack Belle! Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe i- omg I forgot how to breathe.

Everyone else was already out of the bus. I had a drawstring backpack filled with a charger and two water bottles.

I slowly walked outside not wanting to see anyone right now. I kept my head down the whole time and walked to where the group was waiting.

"Hey guys! The YouTuber tent will be open in 5 minutes! Come on California lets rock." I tried my best to act happy while filming this vlog. Damon tried to get near me but I would always walk away. Johnnie and Bryan were also vlogging and as for Patti, she was getting swarmed with fans. It's nice to know everyone supports us with everything we do.

"Hi! What's your name?" I asked the fan who just came up to me.

"It's Mal." She smiled. I took photos with her and we moved on.

*30 minutes later*

"Shayla?" I asked before she could even finish her sentence. "Yep that's me!"

"Oh my gosh!" I attacked her with a hug. Ever since the first meet up we texted each other. After about 6 months we stopped talking because I got busy with everything I had going on. She's like my internet best friend.

"Text me in an hour and you can get lunch with us." I whispered in her ear hoping the other people around wouldn't hear. I don't want people to think I'm picking favorite fans. She's my friend and it would suck if the fans thought that.

*one hour later*
So we got done with the meet up and I did what I did before. I locked myself up in my room. Now I'm sitting on my bed texting Shayla. She's going to be at the gate in 10 minutes to meet all of us for lunch. I put some perfume on to freshen up since I smell like peace tea and sweat.

I then grabbed my bag and left with the group. "Belle Bear can we-"

"No." I walked faster hoping to lose Damon.

"Listen I miss-"

"No you don't." I hissed.

"Yes I d-" I turned around and looked him dead in the eyes.

"Don't do this in front of our friends! Leave me-" I was cut off. It was like lightening. I should've never blinked. All I feel right now is stinging. With my eyes full of tears I ran to the gate where Shayla was standing.

Patti soon went with us. I chose to sit at a different table that the one Damon, Alex, Johnnie, and Kyle were at. My cheek is still red but no one is saying anything.

A few minutes later, Lynn from Pvris sat with us and tried to cheer me up.

"He's a douche." She rubbed my back.

"It's nice to know I have amazing friends." I hugged all of them when we got done eating.

"I'll come by your bus today okay?" Lynn told us. I nodded. She's like my older sister.

"Oh my god." Patti said. Oh no what now?

"What-" I was about to turn around before she panicked and yelled,"No don't!"

I didn't listen; instead I turn around and see Damon.

He's with her.

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Hey guys! So I'm sorry this chappy is so short, buuuuuut I'm going to do a double update next week to make up for it.

Stay strong,
Bella.