a lesson never learned.

forgiven but not forgotten copes p.o.v

(Scar, Tom and jack stopped fighting so Copeland could stay with them, they were fighting due to some drunken stupidity.)

i wake up with my head pounding geez it hurts like hell. I open my eyes to find tom sleeping with me. I freaked out a bit but remembered everything last night and I started silently crying I didn't want to wake tom up. He woke up thanks to my failed attempt. "Hey, hey don't cry its ok its ok" he whispers drying my tears with his thumb like he use to when I would get upset. He pulls me in and we just stay there for a while. He wasn't making a move, it was a natural attempt to calming me and it did. "Hey Copeland you okay?" I pull away from tom not as a scared notion but to see who was talking to me and it scar I haven't see him in a long time. I smile and get up to hug him. "Im feeling better now thanks." "copey I charged your phone you might want to call your boyfriend and tell him you're okay" scar mumbles into my shoulder and then separates us. "I have to take a shower got any clothes to lend me?" tom laughs while I see jack walk in "typical copey" jack says "what? I have to be clean." I tell them smiling feeling a whole lot better. tom gives me his grey jack wills shirt and hands me his sweatpants. its a little loose but nothing the draw string couldn't fix. I head inside the restroom locking the door behind me, before stripping out of my tear stained dirty clothes. im instantly welcomed by the hot water flowing down from head to toe and this is what exactly I needed right now. no guys, not company, just me myself and hot water hitting my back. don't get me wrong im glad tom, scar , and jack let me stay at their place and tom comforted me but I just needed time to myself. to really just think of everything that's happened and how I've managed and what I can do to not be the scared girl sad over her boyfriend being an a-hole at times.

After like 25 minutes of contemplating my life I started washing my body and hair and what not. you know now that I think about it, I've never liked the fruity smelly body wash like ill buy it when im distracted or feel like totally girly (on my period) but other than that ill buy the fresh water spring stuff that makes me feel fresh and clean. after I wash up I step out dry my hair, body and put the clothes on. wearing them gives me flash backs but no feeling of wanting him they're just good memories. I went to the living room. "hey guys what's up?" I ask. "just in time, we were going to go to Walmart and buy some things we need. you coming?" scar asked. "in this? I look like Im ready to just kick back and chill." I tell them. "nonsense you look hot and rock anything you wear." jack told me. "thanks ok then, lets go." I say as I slipped on my black toms. we hopped in toms mustang and headed towards Walmart.                

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Im woken by my head f--kin pounding, damn I hate hang overs. I sit up and find my self laying next to the front door, as well as the others scattered on the floor. well this isn't like me, usually im able to make it to the couch or my bunk before I pass out. I wipe my face trying to shake off my groggy state when pain radiates throughout my body... what the f--k? then all of it hits me from the texting to the club then finding Copeland sleeping with tom and his guys and them leaving cause I called her a slut. dammit! I really need to stop comparing her to every bimbo whore I've slept with. I know shes with tom at his place, I don't know where hes staying at... I know that she wont cheat on me, I just want her back...but how? "romeo its called getting your phone and calling her." I turned around to find cam telling me that. but how? "stop looking confused you said your thoughts out loud". cam said looking at his phone before getting up and going to the restroom. damn how embarrassing but hes right I grab my phone from pocket and dial her number, its already 10 so she should be up. but she didn't answer. "hey babe I hope you can forgive me and come home, I understand you must be extremely pissed at me I just hope we can talk this out... love you bye." I said then hung up the voicemail. ill give her time to be angry, tom protected her and I hope he wont try anything with her. ill wait till 11 and call her again, until then ill take a shower and wake the others and eat whatever leftovers we have.

(11:00 am)now that im much better , all the lads are up and we ate whatever was there (hamburgers) I decided to call her again. after the 4th ring the voicemail opened but I just hung up and decided to text her. {hey love, I screwed up and im sorry please answer my phone calls or at least text me letting me know your okay, come back soon please I love you XO} I sent it and after a while of waiting still nothing. damn, ill wait till 12 and do the same thing again. hopefully she cant stay mad at me forever.

(12:00 am) after random banter with the lads I call her again cam and Andy leave to the store to buy last minute supplies before we leave in three hours. I hate how much I need her with me, its such a weird feeling this whole love thing is new to me. I wonder if she's going to travel separately to the uk or shes going with us. I call her and still nothing, I call two more times after not wanting to wait another hour to call again, BUT STILL NOTHING DAMMIT! I throw my phone across the room and just throw myself on the couch. "you alright mate?" james asks "no Copeland isn't answering the phone dammit" I say drained. "give it some time mate, seriously girls just need space plus shes probably avoiding the phone cause of how ALL of us acted, if  I were her I wouldn't want to be near us either." danny says. And he has a point, annoyed I just lay there as james plugs in his head phones humming to I think alice cooper.

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arriving at Walmart my phone rings for THE third time from the car to here. I know its ben but im to annoyed with him to call him I don't want to say something I regret and make the situation worse. and I say annoyed because im not mad at him for assuming those things of me im annoyed that hes so easy to believe that anything good cant happen for him so he believes the lie and goes with it, it annoys me I love him and want him to know I wouldn't do such thing to him. plus I wouldn't know what to say to the guys especially to my brother, how the hell would he assume such crap about me. im literally shaken from my mind battle by jack whos holding my shoulders looking down at me. "can you stop scrunching up your face your scaring us and people." he laughs. I laughed with him. tom looks so funny with his shopping basket walking down isles and throwing stuff in the basket. so me and jack take a pic of him as scar is getting some razors, shaving cream etc. me and jack ended up taking a hell lot of selfies, it started with just us and then we started trying to sneak pics of people who we thought looked hot or weird. when we got caught with this old lady we recorded our running back to tom and stopped recording when we found him. we showed him the video and he made us watch it closely. as we were running we had past by andy and cam. "omg they are here I don't want to talk to them yet". I told tom and jack. "ok me and you will roam around the store carefully while tom and scar finish shopping". jack said before grabbing my hand and sneaking around several isles. we were in the house products section walking backwards when I bumped into something hard and fell on it. ow?! "im soo sorry here let me help you-". I stopped to see it was my brother I was picking up.