Illusion (Ziall Horlik) AU

Chapter 10

Zayn's POV

Jace took me home the next morning, but I wasn't really feeling like being around him right now. He pushed me to drink last night, even though I told him I couldn't. He just ignored me and kept begging me or he was going to fire me. I can't loose my job, so I did it. It was like he wasn't even my boyfriend but more like those stupid boys at school that make you do things you don't want to because they have a good enough threat on you.

He walked me to my door quietly, but when he tried to kiss me after I opened my door I just turned my head. He didn't seem to like that because he grabbed my jaw in his hand roughly and made me kiss him. I went into my flat and was going to close the door, but he pushed it open and invited himself in.

"Jace, I don't want to see you or be with you right now. I'm tired and not feeling well, so can you just give me some space?" I asked him. He looked at me and shook his head like he wasn't going to give me what I was asking for. I just went and got the empty beer bottles from the floor and threw those away. I dumped the rest of the red wine down the sink, then just looked down at my kitchen sink. I felt so stupid at the moment because not only did I drink, but now I have to wait a full 24 hours before taking my medication so that all the alcohol can be completely out of my body. I'm actually afraid I'm going to start seeing things or hearing things that aren't real.

Jace's arms wrapped around my waist from behind me, but his touch made me want to cry. I didn't feel like he would take care of me because I could have died last night. It's my fault I listened and didn't just run down the hallway to Niall and Liam's flat for help, but I was too scared to do that. Jace asked me who else would date someone with schizophrenia and that made me give in because I felt like I owed him something to make him happy. I just wiggled out of his arms and walked back to my living room to put away my pull out bed to get it back to my couch.

"Zayn, it's not my fault you were stupid and drank. Stop being such a bitch about it." Jace told me, but I turned to him and gave him the dirtiest look I could give him. He didn't seem to read what I was trying to tell him with my face, so I decided to get it out there.

"I could have died! My life means nothing to you! You pressured me into drinking and now you're calling me a bitch! Get out of my house!" I screamed at him. He took a step closer to me, but I stood my ground. He didn't scare me even for a minute. Not right now because I was too angry with him.

"You mean everything to me, but you're still stupid! You're stupid, Zayn! You want someone to like you and I like you, so don't give that up!" He yelled back to me. I shook my head because I didn't feel like he liked me right now. I felt like he was the one that wanted someone to like him and I was stupid enough to give him the time of day.

"I don't want to be with you anymore! A week was all it took for you to mess up and I don't want to see what you can do longer than that!" I yelled at him. That just caused him to take one step closer to me and swing his open hand across my face. I cried out in pain and fell to the floor at the force of the hit. I looked up at Jace in shock as I clutched my cheek. He was seething with anger as he reached down and picked me up by the collar of my shirt.

"See what you made me do?! You made me hit you! You're fucking stupid!" He screamed in my face as he shook me with each of his words. Tears begin rolling down my cheeks in fear. I reach over to gently touch Jace's arms to get him to calm down so he could let me go. He pushed me to the floor and slapped me one more time before walking away from me.

All I could think of was his words echoing through my head that no one else would date me because that was true. I wasn't afraid of being alone, I just wanted to know someone liked me even though I was such a mess of a person. I got up and ran after him before reaching for him. He just continued to my front door, then slammed the door behind him.