Our Eternal Ruin (Auslly)

9. The Note

A gift? A curse? Who knew... but time was running out.

~Austin~

I groaned over the toilet, losing all my breakfast, lunch, dinner, and the protein shake I'd just choked down.

I hated throwing up. It made me feel like a little kid all over again.

My mom had always been there when I was sick.

Now it was just my dad.

And he sent people to do his dirty work. Not that he didn't love me, he just had bigger things to deal with than his son tossing up his cookies.

I was glad I was sick all night. It meant I was getting it out of my system before practice. Even on my worst day, I was still better than half the guys out there.

I shouldn't have pushed myself so hard, especially after the new round of meds, but I'd wanted to help Ally.

Her innocence called to me, just like her darkness.

Damn, but I could almost see the dark cloud billowing over her head.

I'd lived through that and more. Sometimes her smile was fake, other times she was so concerned with what others thought about her that I wanted to shake her.

Maybe from the outside it didn't appear that way, but her eyes, the way they would focus on everything almost as if taking too long to stare at something might bring attention to her.

It was weird, seeing a girl who physically screamed look at me, cower into herself.

Friends?

Hell no.

I was probably the worst idea for her, the worst friend in the entire universe. I'd end up breaking her heart regardless. So I knew I may as well make it as painless as possible.

Since I was clearly lacking in the self control department, I'd be the best damn friend she ever had. I just couldn't attach myself romantically. I wouldn't do that to her. After all, she had full happy years of education left, whereas I was done in a few months.

I threw on my practice jersey and grabbed my keys. I hated walking to practice.

It was wet in the mornings; the university was right on the Pacific Ocean, meaning it was always cold this early.

With a sigh, I made a stop at Ally's dorm room and slid a note under her door.

"And so begins the friendship," I whispered.

Maybe I could help her crawl out of that damn cocoon. Maybe it would be enough to leave a smile on my face when I left for good.

Maybe the darkness wasn't closing in like I first assumed. Maybe, I just invited it without knowing?

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~Ally~

The alarm jolted me awake.