{completed} Somebody to die for

Chapter 8: Broken inside

Katniss's pov

What is this pain I feel deep in my chest, a feeling like someone is pushing down on my chest making it hard to breathe, hard to think.

It's all because of that MUTT Peeta even if that is his own name but still I thought he cared or even loved me but when I look back to the games I was the stupid one, so stupid that I couldn't figure out the game he was playing. I can't stand it anymore I just screaming trying to get out of here and just like usual everything goes black.

District 12 is not my home
The capital saved me

Peeta's pov

I can't stop thinking about her, it's like she is still in the capital.
Over time I have realised how much I need her she is like my oxygen and without her I can not breathe.

My girl on fire
Has burnt out
My mockingjay
Has lost her wings and her voice.

My door slides open to find gale standing there. Why is he here, I know he's hurting like me but still we aren't even friends our anything like that.
"Hey peeta" he says with a sad smile across his face
"Hey, why are you here because I know for a fact that you hate me?" I stand up making me point
"I don't hate I just dislike you and I have come here to check up on you because we are both feeling the same right now and maybe we could at least try and get on for both our sakes" he still holding eye contact with me but I am still shocked about he just said like this is the guy who tried to punch me and threatened me.
"Okay, well how is she?" I ask but I am trying to keep the tears in.
"Well finally she has stop calling you mutt and has moved to IT, and at the moment we are putting game footage together to see if that triggers any memories"
my eyes trail of the floor towards Gale and he looks like he is trying to hold back the tears.
"Well I guess that's better than nothing right?" I ask him
"Yeah but now she is in with prim and her mum at the moment they come in daily, so she can get used to seeing them" I realise that a tear has fallen out of my eye. I quickly wipe it away
I see gale looks at me with pity and worry
"Sorry it's just hard to see her like this so confused and broken and now she can finally see me who what and who i truly am" I just try and hang on because I am sick on always being weak around people
"I know peeta even when she was in the capital in know when we got her back I know she would be different and broken like Annie but I thought we could fix that but this is hard one me and I can see that your more broken  than ever and you need her like a flower needs water, I understand more than anyone here peeta because we both feel the same towards her"
"Yeah she haas us wrapped round her fingers" I chuckle and so dose gale
"Bye peeta"
"Bye"
The door closes and maybe me and gale have a shot at being friends and I agree we both understand each other because we both love her but I don't even know what love is anymore.
My dad told me that...

Love is an unconditional commitment to an imperfect person,
To love somebody isn't just a strong feeling,
It is a decision
A judgement
And a promise
And mine and katniss's promise is broken

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Hey guys I sorry i haven't updated in AGES but I have Been really busy with school work and family so sorry again x

I have decided to not make a sequel to this when I finish this book. Leave your thoughts please

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