i'm sorry // cake au (completed)

six

yesterday, i fucked up big time.

my instincts told me that he liked me back, so i kissed him. but right after the kiss, he ran away without any sign of him liking it.

which meant, he didn't, right?

i slipped on some slippers as i headed out the door. i was heading to the beach
to meet up with my friend, cassidy. out of frustration, i called her last night and vented to her. being the very caring bff she is, she said to meet her at the beach today - considering it was summer too.

i decided not to go to the library for a day. i mean, if i went, he most probably wouldn't want to even look at me, let alone talking. i'd love to see his face but pretty sure he didn't want to see mine. so, in order not to waste away a summer holiday, i thought i'd go to the beach with cassidy.

cassidy has been my bff for three years. when she moved in, she often got bullied and i would always watch from beside. one day, i couldn't stand seeing her being beat up anymore, so i went forward to help her. ever since then, we became inseparable.

i parked my car and walked down the slope that led to the beach. it was quite crowded. just as i pulled out my phone to call cassidy, a pair of tan arms wrapped around my waist, causing me to screech.

"hey calum, i've waited for twenty minutes!" cassidy said as i removed her arms from my waist. i smiled at her and pulled her hair-tie off her secured messy looking pony tail. 

she playfully slapped my bicep and retied her hair. "sorry, traffic was a little jam," i told her and we started to walk along the rim of the sea.

it was beautiful - the sea, the sun, the sandy ground. i was in my stripey swim trunks and cassidy was in her white bathing suit, her tan skin combining with it perfectly.

she started to interrogate me about luke. "so did you see him today?"

"no. don't want to go today," i said, sighing heavily.

"i bet he misses you and is sitting by himself at the table."

my heart broke at the possibility. i scratched my head and started to dip my toes in the water. then, i brushed the thought off as i concentrated on how clear the water was.

"no, he can't be. he hates me now, i fucking kissed him yesterday."

"he probably liked the kiss, calum. think of it, why did he let you hold his hand? why did he let you take him on a picnic? wake up and realize that he likes you, dude!"

she squatted down and splashed some water onto my calves. what she said did hit me a lot. maybe he does like me, maybe he did like the kiss.

"you think so?" i asked and squatted down beside her.

"fuck yes, it's obvious. maybe he ran away because it all escalated too quickly."

"oh yeah, maybe. but what do you think i should do?"

she stared blankly at the beautiful portrait of the waves rolling in, thinking deeply. "go see him tomorrow, pretend like nothing happened. then when you leave, kiss him goodbye. if he kisses back, bam, you have a boyfriend."

i rolled my eyes at her suggestion. it was kind of dumb, but it was kind of a good one too.

"are you saying that i should ask him out?"

"i don't know, do what you think is best for you. if you want a significant other, ask him out. if you think you don't then no. i really can't make decisions for you, calum. it's your life. but there's one thing you have to be ready of, and that is rejection. if you fear rejection, i suggest you not to do it until you're ready."

i gave her a smile. i thought of it, i decided that i was going to ask luke about his feelings for me.

a/n: hey im sorry this sucked :-(

alsO I AM SO ANGRY BECAUSE CAKE IS SO WEAK LATELY. MALUM IS SO ALIVE I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIP MY HEAD IN ACID